Future Husband

Dear Future Husband,

There are words I have formed

And meant to speak,

But find they die on my tongue

When our eyes meet,

And your meaning in my world

Is lost whilst you're near,

Instead replaced by your simple existence,

The appreciation of a man

Sure and true,

Of a person I have watched bloom,

Meeting and exceeding

All expectations my young heart formed-

Filling my moments

With the laughter of a love

Formed long ago,

On a school bus ride

And then again sitting

Side by side

On a sunburnt picnic table

While water reflected

Our future back to me,

Before either of us

Knew what love meant-

I knew long before

You were ready

That one day

It would be you and I

Growing old

Staring at a field

Of wild flower

And tamed wilderness

As the earth aged

But our souls remained young,

I knew long ago

Even while staring in the eyes

Of other men

Feeling nothing

And imagining only you,

While you found yourself

And I awaited the day

Where you were ready

To take a deep breath

And settle your wild spirit

Only a fraction,

Enough to allow mine

To show it the way

To a love that spans

A lifetime.

Now I am lucky enough

To gaze upon your face daily

And wonder

What would have happened

Had all those years apart

Not been wasted,

If they had been spent beside you

With patience and understanding,

If perhaps I would have understood

This freedom-belonging

At an earlier age,

With little fear over

What forever meant-

And I would tell you

A thousand times

But fear you would not understand

The reason behind

The gratefulness for your open mind

Your trusting nature,

Allowing me my own path

As long as it finds a way

To run alongside yours

Until the moment

They stop moving.

So dear partner,

Read these words

While I am away

And know

Our spirits are twined

In the here and now

And the ever after.

With love and sincerity,

Your future wife.