Freedom

It's like I experience something new every time

The way it feels in my mouth each time I breathe

In my lungs

I yearn for you like I yearn for the taste of nicotine

Each puff

Each breath I take in is always a relief

And when I take my last breath, that last part of nicotine at the end of the butt, I feel complete

Yet in the end not all cigarettes last forever

Not all love last forever

That is why I had to stop

I had to take every memory of you out of my system in order to not get reeled in like all the others

I had to

It wasn't of my choosing

Yet what the outcome would be for choosing you

I was such an addict

And such an idiot to have fallen right into your grasp

Such an idiot to think that at the end, it would be fine

But at the end of each cigarette won't last forever

I didn't want to continue to yearn for your taste

As I myself do have a life

And need to continue that life with someone new

With someone that I know for sure won't kill me

That I know for sure the addiction I will withhold won't be horrible

For you have made me this way

You have made me addicted to you and only you

To waste my time, precious time, on you

When I know it won't last forever

And forever is what I yearn

I bid my last adieu

As for I won't suffer anymore

I will be free and be able to live my life

The life I yearn for

My freedom

My precious freedom.