Fake it till I make it

I can't talk to anyone about this

The pain is all inside

The breaking is internal

so it's easy to hide

I laugh when I want to cry

and force a bright smile

Fake it till I make it

I'll be faking for a while

Eventually I'll get there

where it doesn't hurt to think your name

where the beat of my heart is my own

and my will is the same

I won't jump at the sound of the phone,

heart beating in my chest

hoping that it's you

Hoping for the best

My laughter won't ring false

My smile will be true

I've done this all before

but I never really got over you

I just learned to ignore the yearning

The ever present hole inside my heart

The soul deep knowing

that two halves should never be apart

But call it fate, call it karma

Call it your own free will

You've chosen someone else again

leaving me here, loving you still