Ever-questioning

[ Before reading my variation on the expected format for this Challenge.

‘An acrostic is a poem or other word composition in which the first letter (or syllable, or word) of each new line (or paragraph, or other recurring feature in the text) spells out a word, message or the alphabet.’

I have used the format below to embed a narrative.

"Acrostic Poetry". OutstandingWriting.com. Archived from the original on 10 October 2016. Retrieved 30 April 2011. ]

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Ever-questioning; I delve into the dark recesses of my broken mind. Before, I could easily process and achieve clarity. Now? I am obscured. Many times cognitively dispossessed.

Can I reconcile opposing conceptual beliefs?

Languishing indifference can be a short-term coping mechanism. I can become tormented by my attempts to resolve. At times rumination plunges me into the darkness.

Inclusive or exclusive? Is it possible? Or does one overshadow the other. Opportunities seem endless for the unbroken. Many appear steadfast. Their conceptual beliefs are without question. Truly, I wish them well. Are they hardwired?

Perhaps the inevitable shifts in life circumstances will provide them with the chance to waver and discover a different construct?

Still I question; why punish myself? Ever-questioning to find my truth? Why do I feel the need to validate that which I know to be true? My conundrum? My conceptual belief includes mutually exclusivive concepts. Can they coexist or does one eclipse the other?

Eventually I will be confident enough to expose my belief about life. My ever-questioning will cease with profound relief. Perhaps now is the time? I know my truth. It is informed by lived experience. I am a pessimistic optimist.

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A cautionary note to self:

I have Bilolar 1 (Rapid Cycling) as well as Complex PTSD and Functional Neurological Disorder. As a pessimistic optimist, the quick shifts in my moods; from the plague of black to the golden hues, puts me at risk of the eclipse of forever.

A pessimist and an optimist, so much the worse; so much the better.

Jean de La Fontaine

[ Jean de La Fontaine (born July 8?, 1621, Château-Thierry, France—died April 13, 1695, Paris) was a poet whose Fables rank among the greatest masterpieces of French literature. ]

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Source:.Cambridge Dictionary

https://dictionary.cambridge.org

Pessimistic:

Thinking that bad things are more likely to happen or emphasising the bad part of a situation.

Optimistic:

Hoping or believing that good things will happen in the future.

Another entry in the ‘In Eclipse’ Challange uses the traditional format of an Acrostic poem.is below:

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