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tears of disbelief well up in my eyes.
grief, my old friend, is back again
on that heavy drive home alone,
and i see you walking in my rearview.
even if i don't say it now,
i wish i did.
even if i don't say i love you now,
i wish i could.
even if i wasn't a better man when i met you,
i wish i am.
i already miss your stupid jokes-
the ones i always yell at you for,
but nobody is yelling anymore,
and you're still here but not for long.
even if i don't say it now,
i wish i did.
even if i don't say i love you now,
i wish i could.
even if i wasn't a better man when i met you,
i wish i am.
here again for some reason
finally ready to hear each other,
if just to exchange one last moment
when we say our goodbyes,
but neither of us knows
if it really is this time.
even if we don't say it now,
i wish we did.
even if we don't say i love you now,
i wish we could.
even if i wasn't a better man when i met you,
i wish we would be.
goodbye: synonymous with january,
and i forget to tell you
when my wings melt and i fall,
while i watch you drown from a raging thirst.
not sure when we'll get it back together,
or how we even could; and,
even if we don't say it now,
i wish we did.
even if we don't say i love you now,
i wish we could.
even if we wasn't a better man when i met you,
i wish we would.
About the Creator
⸘jason alan‽
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i am only responsible for what i say
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not for what you understand
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you may learn to be charmed by my [secret‽] discontent
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or you may not
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Comments (2)
Amazing imagery!!
Well done!🥰