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Fighting my Demons Freestyle

By Lightning Bolt ⚡Published 2 years ago • Updated about a year ago • 1 min read
shattered & shocked ⚡

I get my feelings hurt

Because I need a hug and I feel disconnected

Then I get angry and act the fool

Making it far less likely I'll get the hugs I need

My behavior is crippling, ridiculous, unpredictable, self-defeating

I sit and I stew and I smolder for hours over little things

Then I blow up when everything boils over

I have no one to talk to about my problems (⚡>challenges<⚡👍)

I'm told I need another friend

But where do I find a friend?

I'm far too old to meet one on a playground

And if I have another friend

___and they hurt my feelings

_______Will I act the fool with them?

And then it's POOF...💨💨

💨💨 💨💨 >Gone<

⚡

The man I love wants to leave me

He's sane.

I'm not.

He's put up with too much of my shit {my mood swings}

How many times have I told him that I'm sorry?

Too many times for him to care anymore

I tell him I'm better off alone when I'm mad

Then...

When I'm over that mania, I know I'll never be better off without him!

Will he give me a dozenth 'second' chance?

🤷

He was already doing that and then I fucked up again!!!

I'm my own worst enemy

💙-💚=💔⚡

I love him.

(period/headline/ total emphasis)

4ever & always

__________________Bolt ⚡

Original story☝️ by ©️William Markly O'Neal II, 2024 - All rights reserved ⚡

Free VerseStream of Consciousnessheartbreaksad poetry

About the Creator

Lightning Bolt ⚡

Bolt ⚡ aka Bill↬bizarre bisexual bipolar alliterative epileptic sexy ♒Aquarian retired superhero. Author of humor, poetry, sci fi & horror.

✔️ A Taco Bell, A Shakespearian Robot, A Slut, Prophets, A Bed, A Dreamer, & A Historic Mismatch.


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