Early midlife crisis
Not where I'm meant to be
November 14th at 8 pm is when I noticed
It's snowing
I wish I felt the way about it as I did
However many years it's been
since I was a kid
It actually hasn't been that long
If I really think about it
Shit, there was something I was meant to do today
Is it too late now
That's okay
Almost 22 and you're still fighting with family
Still have my part-time job
Just a part-time job
Like... really
At this point, I'd be happy to die young
Receive a terminal diagnosis
then I'll have my fun
No fear of the future
Embrace the hurt
But now
I just got through my 3rd bottle of wine
just this week
And I'm scared to mention
All the beer that I drink
I've never been one for liquor
But lately, I hate the way that I think
and I'm afraid I'm not where I'm supposed to be
I'm supposed to smile at the snow
I'm supposed to be somebody else
Who knew I'd feel so low
Feeling my breathing slow
My heart has been taking
such a beating lately
The cold was supposed to protect me
How can I escape these feelings
I live for today
Or hang on to the past
Is there a way
to do both and make it last
I'm not trying to live in constant strife
I want to make it and finally thrive
I'm living my midlife crisis
I miss being a kid
but I want to make something big
of my life
How do I do both at the same time
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