Drowning

gone with the current

locked tight within a rip

my eyes and mouth are filled with ocean

i’m unable to get a grip

unsteady within an eddy

i toss and turn with the tide

submerged saline asphyxiation

a thrilling but final ride

the crash of the waves breaks my back

i’m thrown and flung with the weeds

at the tender mercies of this cool seasonal ebb

there are no wants desires or needs

wantonly welded to the will of the tide

the end is close i am sure

to drift forever forgotten flotsam

or to be dashed on some far jagged shore

my head goes under the swell

the surface is so far away

i hold my breathe until inevitably

everything fades and turns grey

my throat and lungs fill with water

you cannot hear my scream

intensive and stronger, drawn out and longer

worse than any dream