Drawn away from feeling okay
Poem: The Feels Series
I can't call my mom because I don't want her to hear the sadness in my voice,
I don't want to talk to my best friend, because I don't want my sadness and concern to overtake her day,
I don't want to include my boyfriend because I don't want to feel the obligation of feeling the need to communicate,
I want to turn my phone on airplane mode,
Maybe even turn it off,
Go back to bed, and let myself feel lost,
I want to take an edible to slow everything down,
Where all I can do is taste the simplicity of food,
and laugh at funny sounds,
I want to throw myself into work, because that is something I can control,
But I dread every moment it's time to leave and open the doors,
I want my anxiety to be heard, but left alone,
Understood and known, without the expectation of making sense of it,
I want to be allowed to be envelop in myself,
Without it seeming like a cry out for help,
I want to disappear within my mind,
Without being trapped within the senselessness that it tends to find,
I want to feel daily structure without the absence of what is missing,
I want to be able to feel whole without missing the feeling of kissing,
I want to wake up and see the opportunity in the day,
Instead of the reasons why the bed is where I should stay,
I want to feel the excitement to future plans and being alive,
I want to feel like I don't desire to be drawn away,
To hide from the home within myself,
I want to feel okay with being okay.
About the Creator
Rilee Arey
What a life we live, Lets live a life where we have something to write home about!
27-year-old trying to find meaning, love and a life worth living.
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