Down a Dark Highway
A Mile Out of Quarantine
It's a shot glass but
it's a full glass. third one
up to the rim. a basketball
game is playing on the screen.
fans are shouting.
unsure footsteps drag
the tipsy to the bathrooms. time-outs
draw parallels between dancing
cheerleaders and fleet-footed waitresses.
the dull rumble of enjoyment
doesn’t affect the glass. the tequila,
that the bartender recommended
after one look at my face,
never ripples. only reflects
the dim sheen of the bar counter.
I can only see myself
looking out. I know the world would burn
if I drank it in. like this still spirit…
the vapors carry me in their fog
to commune with ghostly thoughts of
what brought me here. they float me
back to my car
and seat me. under
the endless gray of an
overcast sky. the heaviness
muffles the highway into
a wan halo of
headlights, tail lights
gas stations, and
highway lamp posts.
and between the soft groaning of
the engine and the grumbling of
the tires stumbling on rugged roads
I hear
the sighing of fluorescent bulbs
and neon creaking against the
vague weight of the atmosphere
condensed into leaden clouds.
I’m cruisin'
down I-93 at eighty five. horizon
is the buffer between the great
darkness of the universe and
the keen wisps of humanity’s light.
all definition is lost there. Uncertainty
makes the destination a cliff
I hope I don’t drive us over.
I heard the click of the seatbelt
before pulling off but I’m worried
because they’re slur drunk, slumped over,
and wearing cigarette smoke. So
I keep checking the GPS.
I'm never sure we're going the right way.
or to the right place.
because how could I be? and
how many passengers
are willing to move even
a single mile forward
on faith? to have a path
to take. signs along the way. and
a destination promised
because the unknowable creeps in
from every direction. the fear
that how we live,
who we are, is
unworthy of this place.
the only place,
in an endless darkness,
where light truly was made
for the people who inhabit it.
...a heaven.
and to be miserable there
sounds like a hell
a slow poisoning
could get you out of…
The shouts of gratified patrons
tell my body that my hand
is holding the glass.
I don’t remember when.
I only know why. the backlight
from tv screens morphs content smiles
into perverse laughter. ghouls enjoying
their torment. demons serving
temptation. the flirty eyes of someone
looking for another to get lost with
find mine. and hold them.
until I raise the glass
to my lips...
“Cheers.”
About the Creator
Stratusfier
I love improving at crafts that lead to strong relationships and impact in my community. The difficulty of being neurodivergent is the toil of working constantly for understanding. For myself and others. I hope to be a bridge for that work.
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