My Grandad is the subject of
many stories. so many, even before
his funeral. he passed on
so much inheritance as memories. Me,
I heard most of them from big cousins.
the grandest ones from aunts and uncles.
sometimes I think the tinder of
my ambitions is the context
given for the things
Grandad may have felt mundane.
I still have the image of gleeful
children, faces burnished by the
bronze glow of a couple hundred
dollars profit from penny candy
Grandad's store sold during
the week. I pick the sweetest parts and
unwrap them to taste the bittersweet of
not yet weeping. But I think of him.
I remember him surrounded
by his children, now grown,
as he lay handicapped in his
bed. propped pillows angling him
just between being participant and
subject of conversation. I
never could stay huddled close
to his fire. the others nearly had
their hands in and in comparison,
I was cold.
And I wonder if he felt that. the range
of his warmth failing to reach
younger generations. I admire him
but knew him well beyond his
twilight. the darkening of his mind
bringing shadows he never realized
he kept at bay. from his children
he still heard the stories but
the chill wind of deepening night
made him flicker in and out of
the tales. I think he would crackle
when he heard his name but
I wonder if he was giving up
on the middles just so he could
smile and flare, triumphant
that he reached the end. I wonder
if there was a night
that went too long
without someone raking the coals
and in the ashes insulating his
dimly smoldering mind he knew
that he would be alone long before
he became embers. the wind would
chase his children back into the shelters
he taught them to build. Good dad.
Grandad.
I woke up before the sun and
stepped out to find him cold.
not even smoke. and the EMTs
had already amiably dug him out
the pit. had the coal wrapped up
and placed on a gurney. my aunt
was the only one crying. I felt like
the EMTs should have come back
for her. she was the only one hurt.
I was numb. not dressed for this
weather. I only knew that the days
would be so much colder now.
It was November.
That's how winter started for me.
About the Creator
Stratusfier
I love improving at crafts that lead to strong relationships and impact in my community. The difficulty of being neurodivergent is the toil of working constantly for understanding. For myself and others. I hope to be a bridge for that work.
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