Don't look at me

I know I'm fucking delusional

Let me indulge

I can't help it

I'm a troubled individual

Put my neck in

The noose

So suicidal

Treat death like my idol

Grab the knife and mark my cries beneath my eyes

I don't want these tears to stain my face

I'd rather bleed

Grit my teeth and seethe

Let go of all belief

Don't get near me

Can't you see

I'm ugly

My skin is

So disgusting

Aren't I

So

Sickening

Don't say you love me

That's so frightening

You must be lying to me

Get away

What are you trying to take from me

Leave me be

There's nothing

Don't touch me

These open wounds

Are contaminating

Radiating energy

Like runes

Doesn’t matter what you say to me

I'm doomed

In my heart there's no more room

So much aching pain

Taking all the space

I grab my skin and twist my face

In a circular way

Like a masochist

Like a circus act

C'mon point and laugh

At my mask

Before it unwinds

And I become a blank slate

Wonder who am I

Without exposing my mental state

Come here

Lift my shirt and cringe

When you see my ribcage

I'm sorry I'm so empty

Don't hug me

I'm not cozy

You will feel my bones poking

Don't get close to me

You will see I'm ugly

Okay

That's enough

Please stop looking

I can see your thought of me

Fading

Being replaced

By something

So disgusting

How could you love me

There's nothing lovely