Do You See Me

do you see

the way the sky dances

in my eyes

*

do you hear

the sound of hope

which rings in my voice

*

do you feel

the pain in my bones

which never relents

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do you see me?

do you hear me?

do you feel me?

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i'm the person you loved

when i was well.

the same person that was

easy to love.

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i'm the person you laughed with

when laughing was easy,

and happiness

was readily

found

for me.

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i'm the person you whispered

loving words to

before i was bedbound.

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the same person you promised

to be with

as i faced a new

and scary future

with

illness.

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i'm the same person

that i've always been.

*

i have the same hopes,

same heart,

same voice,

same humanity.

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oh yes,

while i have changed

in what i can do,

i am still the same person

on the inside

that you once loved

and knew.

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i want you to know

that i heard your whispers of doubt

and saw the judgment in your eyes.

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i know you stopped believing

me

long ago.

*

i will be okay without you,

i will heal on my own.

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in the end

i'm not the one who

changed.

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you changed.

you stopped caring

because it got harder

for you to spend time

with me

the way we used to.

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i will be okay.

*

without your support;

like a phoenix

i will rise.

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or not.

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but, i will be okay.

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i don't need you

but

i miss you.