Depression And Anxiety
This is what I feel like when I think of having a new relationship with my depression and anxiety, being strong is one thing but what a lot of people don't see if when I completely break and just wear my mask, because this is truly what its like around me wanting to be near but far.
It painful to be in a relationship with me
you say you love me but how can you love me when I'm broken
my depression is like a whirlwind
it comes with such force that I can not control
one moment I can love you so deeply, then next I want to leave you.
It's a constant battle within myself
between my happiness and my self confidence
for anyone that has a relationship with me never truly understands
some days I can want to be near you and other I want to hide away
some days I will be jealous others I won't care
sometimes you will see me smile but deep down I want to cry
there will be those times when I watch you from afar
yet come near me and speak to me in that gentle tongue
and watch me crumble to the ground.
Love me is hard because I am broken
a relationship with me is a nightmare every day
some times I'm sad others am happy
some days I'm clinging to be near you others I want my own space
my past haunts me and my fear overwhelms me
the slightest things consume me in to fits of tears
this is what depression and anxiety is truly like within a relationship
its hard and cruel
but my biggest fear in it all is loving you and losing you.
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