Deciding

Everyday I pose to myself, what shall I do?

Most days it’s already decided.

Go to work. Living that safe life of routine.

Soon, so very soon, I hope ..... to turn my deciding, in a different direction.

What then do I do? Having taken work out of the equation.

Towards what purpose will I choose to focus what remains of my life?

Deciding to give what energy I still possess, to something more inward.

Something more soul searching, something less mundane.

Should I hike the AT? Take that long awaited walk in the woods.

Should I climb Kilimanjaro? Sounds doable, right?

Body willing.

Or should I take those guitar lessons? That I’ve talked about forever.

I’ve seen so many, it seems, that fall into a different trap, one of stagnation and endless scrolling. Filling their hours with useless electronic waste.

Becoming something not seen on this earth before.

This will not be me.

I will climb Kilimanjaro, I will hike the AT, my lessons will take place. And many other actions.

I will refuse to succumb to the lure of doing nothing, it’s a trap, set to ensnare the unwary.