Dear Dad

I grew up thinking the world of you.

I wanted to be exactly like you.

I remember crying and begging for you to be there.

Then, I saw you crying in front of me

which pushed me to fight for that relationship

that we never really had.

I cherished you.

The day I saw you after months of battling,

a smile covered my wet face.

We had a good few months together.

Then, you showed me a side of you

that I never would have imagined existed.

You were filled with such rage and aggression,

but I still cherished you.

I stomached your mood swings

for those few months of happiness.

You began to put your feelings above mine,

making my emotions feel so insignificant.

You made me feel as if I had to beg for your love.

I tried to tell you how I felt,

but you just screamed.

You called me worthless and stupid.

I couldn’t handle the pain anymore,

so I left.

Even after all of the heartache you caused me,

I still cherish you ‘til this very day.