Dad

Another gloomy story it feels as if evil just runs through me

But I'm created and separated from the others

Let me tell you how I differ from my brothers

I was left on a porch my mother left me too

I was responsibility an inconvenience for two

It's as if I wasn't expected to grow old

So I did and realized you were a no show

Drugs seemed to help you not know us

If my dad loved he certainly didn't show it

Forced me to eat food that I'd just vomit

Scars on my legs and I was told not to show them

Mentally I'd crash and you'd laugh as I'd blow up

I could come to you dying but your son isn't weak

I was told to shut up and not speak

I know I'd cry into those pillows at least once a week

I felt like a pestilence because you were always too busy

You weren't home so I couldn't blame you for not feeding me

But I was too young to even recognize what I was seeing

How was I supposed to toughen up if it was my first time bleeding

Oh you were in prison? Must've been a father I was envisioning

Oh you got out? Seeing so many people is confusing

Oh she was home? but she's usually sleeping

Oh... I'm sorry dad, she was cheating

It's okay, I'll take your beatings

-Shalløw