Cursed Waters
From inner turmoil, to integration...
Cancerian imagination is a Gift and a Curse
The Gravitational pull of our romanticism
Bends space-time to our
Will
But it also warps our reality in our
Sorrow
To make matters better
Or worse
A Gemini moon commands the waters that contain my Curse
All my Life, waves of unfathomable depth and height
Have utterly demolished every internal structure I’ve ever built
In Defiance
I didn’t construct them ignorant of the science
Not in resistance to physics
But rather as an appliance as opposed to a barrier
To the inevitable rising waters of emotion
In my mind, no longer bracing myself for them
But ready and willing
To ride
I couldn’t possibly predict the scale of the inner wisdom this would provide
I just it was Time
To supply all the surrender from within me that I could Find
And as soon as those tides began to rise I wouldn’t Hide
I would Glide
As if in the air. Both elements being fluids
Surely I could do it
And it has made all the difference
The burn of purged Toxins spreads and expands as I consciously narrow the
Distance
Between my deepest, present Peace and my deepest, darkest Fears
Embalmed beneath years of decomposing values that were never my own
They begin to bubble up
One by one after the Tides recede
Each Jet black bubble bursting in symphony with the last
A cacophony of insecurity
Unanswerable inquiry
Sadistic scrutiny
Jealousy
Long
Compulsive recycling of past error
And
Absolute
Existential Terror
Yet in stillness, I gaze into the Black Miasma
Utterly overcome by the spectacle
And all the more at peace
In full recognition that it is my name on the lease
For the venue of this art piece
So I resign the last remnants of my resistance to existence
I close my eyes and lean back into the pool of rot
At rest in the flesh of lifeless bodies of Being
That I
Until Now
Had cut myself off from seeing
So weightless, so freeing
That for a moment I forgot
That I ever feared those high tides that ravage my insides
And as the sea level began to rise
A smile that stretched from my mouth to my eyes
Like a light within a bulb suspended in the sky
Just above the mind
Signified
The grace in those raging waters
As they washed away the old, the False
They made room for the Dignified
The truth
For new Life, in plain sight
I travel lightly now
No baggage through which to sift
The same deep, dark waters I once considered my curse
I now fully embrace as my greatest gift
About the Creator
its really good to see you
I am Jay.
My goals are to creatively encourage you to cultivate genuine self love and to free your mind.
I invite you to step into genuine tranquility and light.
I offer seeds for the garden of your body, mind, and soul.
I hope you plant them
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