Crashing Waves

~To Forget~

We walked forever down a road we had forgotten,

No longer thinking of our past regrets.

But more of the love we had shared,

The deep connection that had flared.

Grabbing your hand, I pulled you closer,

Closer than you were comfortable with.

But I had to show you something dear to me,

In the farthest reaches of my mind.

Secrets that I had vowed to hide forever,

Mysterious thoughts that circled like vultures.

But I couldn’t take it any longer,

I was aching to reach a connection.

You listened to the words that spewed,

These bits and pieces of me that you chewed.

You were ravenous to know more,

So I relinquished it all to you, till I was sore.

The sounds fell from the clouds above my head,

Silence was all that remained.

But I had reached a point with you,

A point I never assumed would occur.

You looked deep into my eyes,

As if you would start to cry.

So I held you close to my heart,

Because this weight was finally off my chest.

I could breathe because you were here,

Here with me.

I got onto my knees and thanked you,

But all you asked was why.

There was no need to forgive,

Just more reason to forget.

This road we traveled down tonight,

Was something we had left behind.

And forgotten.

~Swollen Pen~

Your eyes were swollen again,

I knew you were crying.

I asked where the tears began,

Your eyes tell me at the end of the road.

We stood there together,

I wrapped my arms around your waist.

What had happened on that night?

When the crossroads intersected.

Thoughts were fleeting,

The feelings you were receiving.

You had never felt so full of bliss,

But this moment was something you missed.

The scar never healed from your heart,

And you were scared to move forward again.

Reassurance was lost in your stomach,

Words you couldn’t regurgitate.

I miss you

I love you

I miss us

I love us

Pressing forward was the hardest part,

The story didn’t ever seem to end.

But when you ran out of ink,

You said you’d never write again.

I assured you that you could,

I promised you the pages were forever.

That the ink would refill,

You’d write again soon.

But to move forward,

The scars would need to be written.

The hardest movements of the pen,

Were the most painful.

But also the most relieving.

~River Feelings~

The river rippled in my veins,

The feelings washed over my eyes.

I knew that the end was coming,

But I didn’t think it would happen so soon.

What had I done,

To deserve such release.

I was scared to accept this fate,

But I knew that it had to happen.

Drowning isn’t so painful,

Until the poison reaches your heart.

When the water fills the lungs,

You feel a burning deep inside.

But what comes after,

Isn’t half bad.

It almost makes the burning,

Forgettable.

The silence that follows,

Is soothing and beautiful.

The pain that leaves,

Is welcoming and heartfelt.

After isn’t as bad as before,

It’s rare to feel this way.

So calm,

So pure.

~She~

She baked in the sunlight

Smiling toward the ocean tides

She rode the stormy winds

Softened by the moon lit night

She beckoned for a subtle kiss

Secured by its heartfelt promise

She knew it wouldn't last long

Speculation kept her awake at night

She worried about your light fading

Succour dripped from her mind often

She walked to the end gracefully

Satisfied by the thought of being alongside you

She didn't need to understand

Solace was her only experience

She remembers a time of joy

Saddest when the lights dimmed

She was a deadly warrior

Safety was not a concern to her

She raced towards danger fiercely

Satiation in the back of her mind

She was all yours

Sadly you let her fall

She was yours

Somberly she wish you stayed

~He~

He walked alone in the evening

Harrassed by the coming morning

He knew the sun would awaken his soul

Horrified by its bright exposure

He looked towards his heart

Headstrong he knew it was true

He would never let the moment go

However, he would let it pass

He was alone by the riverbed

Huffing thoughts that ruined him

He was trapped in his own mind

Horrendously difficult to get away from

He looked you in your brown eyes

Hooked on a feeling of envy and bliss

He wished he knew your name

Hoping maybe to capture a kiss

He saw the scars on your back

Hearing of your woes made him weak

He wanted to help and hold you

Hold you close and not let go

He saw something dark inside

Herein he knew it wouldn't work

He felt tears run down his cheeks

Hopefully he'd stay, for her sake

~TCR~

The water turned down the coast

Creeping around the nervous bends

Rushing too fast to comprehend

The fire raised its flames above your head

Crushing all in its destructive path

Roaring around the mountains curves

The wind carried birds in its wake

Capturing countless flakes of flowers

Ready to rush around the world

The earth was steady and unyielding

Captivated by the cracks of the land

Ricocheting rockslides against the ground

~Blood River~

As the night came to a close,

I peered towards the moonlit night.

Thinking of a lost, forgotten reality,

That would never occur again.

Something had come over me,

A rushing movement in my mind.

Racing against a stream of electricity,

I felt broken at my own seams.

The river seemed to rush forever,

Without reaching an end.

But where the rocks met the waves,

I seemed to crash against its weight.

Why should I think it's worth it,

When it was all too quiet that night.

There should have been a reason for this,

But all I could hear were lies through gritted teeth.

There was a howling deep inside,

A creaking of the trees up high.

To feel how I had felt then,

Would seem all too foreign to me now.

Until I had realized it's meaning,

I would sit in the moonlight.

Basking in the rushing sounds,

Of this blood river.

~Weaving~

My desire to keep us apart,

Seems to be stronger than last time.

But the fabric seems tragic,

It’s always becoming torn.

So where do I apply this needle,

If my arms are always too weak.

The pressure I need isn’t there,

But then again, it never was.

The assistance I need from you,

Is stronger than last time.

But your words always break me apart,

Tearing me down, down to my knees.

I try to rip apart this fabric,

Hoping to breach a new heaven.

The clouds inside your eyes,

Tell me that it isn’t time yet.

So here I stand, with this needle in hand,

Hoping that maybe, just maybe, you’d right my wrongs.

With my arms wide open,

I wait for heaven's embrace.

If you could suffocate me with words,

I’d choke every time I heard your voice.

If you could rescue me with pain,

I’d hurt every time I looked into your eyes.

I’ll attempt to stitch together this fabric,

Thinking that every time is the right time.

Consistently missing with the thread,

I’ll keep weaving against the needles line.

Look at me and tell me I’m wrong,

Gaze into my soul and tell me I’m yours.

Hold me close and let me know it’s okay,

Touch my hands and let me know there’s warmth.

Make the first move,

Don’t let me cross the wrong stream.

First help me learn,

Give me a solid reason to see what this means.

I’ll point this needle to the fabric,

The result will mostly be tragic.

Hopefully I can learn from you,

Maybe I can weave together something.

Meaningful.

~Tree’s Grow Too~

Ascending is always a form of growth,

Getting higher than the ground could ever be.

You rise with love, with endless sunlight,

But when there is growth, there is the latter.

Descent is always the scariest part,

Reaching lower once the sun fades.

Nights seem to grow shorter,

As the cold breaches a new beginning.

You fall slowly, sometimes fast,

You won’t know the pain until you feel it firsthand.

Once the feeling fades, there is only growth.

Once there is growth, you can bloom.

The sun turns and faces the horizon each day,

You too, would see a new start to your past end.

As the heat hits your heart,

You can feel the unending warmth.

Did you ever think pain would be easy,

When it only wants to see you in pain.

You aren’t supposed to give in,

When the pain is the only thing you see.

You’re supposed to find the latter of it,

The part that isn’t visible to your eyes.

A deeper meaning buried in its core,

A form of growth if you can let the feeling pass.

Once you can see that arisen growth,

You can learn to deal with the pain once more.

This time, stronger than the last,

But always with the new growth, hidden.

You have to dig deeper with each stride,

Never letting yourself stay down.

Always getting off of your broken knees,

Standing as if you could so easily.

Growth is there my dear,

You only have to not fear.

Descent is always the scariest part,

Ascending is just a form of growth.

And growing hurts.

~Something Without Reason~

I just want to feel something that means the world to me,

I want to stay just a little bit longer where it means more.

I want to be a part of something that is everlasting,

Something that is magical and beautiful.

Just for tonight I’d want to feel your skin against mine,

Something that burns but feels so good with every touch.

Just for tonight I’d want to feel the reason,

The reason you wanted to leave scars on my heart.

Why couldn’t it just be tonight and only tonight,

Why did it have to end on the dotted line?

With an intersection that burned every sign,

With a motive that moved against every tide.

We stride, and we move forever with no sense of direction,

But what if there was something more, another reason.

Just a reason to move forward, a reason to stay longer,

If we had that reason, we could make the night last forever.

But here we are, wanting more and more and more,

But always falling short of this magical euphoria.

The ocean separates us when times are drowning us,

But we need to swim, and find a shoreline that feels like home.

I want you so badly, and I always will,

I wish there was another reason for this feeling.

I hoped there would be something deeper,

Something I could write about.

I was losing sight of everything between us,

This feeling wouldn’t last forever, but it had.

I had found a serene jubilation within this reason,

Within this love, there was something, something real.

You said there was a reason to leave, not a reason to stay.

You claimed there was a mountain to climb, new heights to reach.

You said that it needed to be done, something had to be done.

I saw lies in your reasoning, hoping you would see the errors too.

Silence was all I ever spoke of,

All you heard was the cries of a broken man.

You never changed, you always wanted more,

Something told me I had to understand.

I didn’t. I never would.

~Rain That Beckons Warmth~

The clouds roll over into infinity,

As the rain builds up, we feel it's bliss.

Rain beckons us to swim to a new future,

A new meaning that makes us move forward.

When the rain reaches our skin,

We feel cold to our brittle bones.

A cold that tells us that it isn’t over,

A battle with life that hasn’t ended.

The feeling fades as the clouds part ways,

We are meant to keep that reminder in us most days.

To move, to breathe, to see a bright new day.

To never dismiss the rain, to never stray.

When the rain clears, do you feel it in you,

A feeling built up like rain in the clouds.

Step out into the sun with that reminder,

Take heed that rain will come once more.

But not today, not at this moment,

For now, you go, you keep moving.

Knowing that the cold of rain is a passing feeling,

That the sun will breach the clouds to heal you.

To remind you that with every storm,

There is a rainbow that feels warm.

And it's just in the clouds.

~Bittersweet Heart~

I just wish you wouldn't be so sour,

To me, you're bittersweet.

You could be so much sweeter,

If only you could love yourself a little more.

But I can't tell you that,

It's something you need to learn from life.

It isn't a joke,

Nor is it a bribe.

Sit down for just five minutes my dear,

Indulge in my frivolous mind.

Release the toxicity you feel inside,

Let it be open to interpretation.

I wish you wouldn't be so inclined to leave,

Your body could be a golden temple.

With marble steps, polished on each side.

We could walk up to the sky together.

If only you'd listen and lend an ear,

Maybe, just maybe, we would be near.

The end of your beautiful beginning,

Not nearly close to your bittersweet heart.

For just a few seconds,

Could you could look into my eyes.

I would swear on my own heart,

But since it was broken, it's no longer mine.

If only we had more time,

If only we could fly.

I just wish you wouldn't be so sour,

To me you're bittersweet.

~Two Rivers~

Part those rivers,

Make room for more ocean.

If it was us in between,

We would feel it's motion.

Tectonic plates shifting,

Barriers busy erupting.

The seafloor was shackled,

By the core of mother earth.

The kisses left by the tide,

Washed ashore onto my cheeks.

The affected area felt simply weak,

But without its grasp, I was cold for weeks.

A letter was left within this bottle,

Flung towards the sea, unbound, yet free.

The remaining seconds we each had,

Seemed to wither as the sea came closer.

Penmanship was unspoken,

Yet it was only written by your heart.

The ink had dried once the evening died,

I sat here alone, waiting on the tide.

Maybe if high tide was closer,

We would feel it's solid embrace.

We would liquefy from our toes,

Water rising towards our necks.

Once upon a time,

There was a river with two parts.

One was golden, named me,

Another was silver, named you.

~No Thank You~

When she broke the stem,

She took the petals with her.

She left no trace of them,

No thank you

But she left the petals at your door,

Waiting to be planted once more.

She left a trace of herself,

No thank you

When she broke the ground,

She took the rocks with her.

She left no trace or sound,

No thank you

But she left rocks in your garden,

Waiting to be placed once again.

She left a trace of herself,

No thank you

~Lion~

The lion roars once it knows itself,

It rises from its hind legs for the first time.

It's mane grows as it feels its hidden pride,

It seeks refuge in knowing the truth.

It's ferocity spikes during the night,

Trying to find the prey it seeks.

When the roars echo across the land,

You seek refuge in your fright.

~Tremble~

My bones break against the tide,

I can feel your body against mine.

To feel what is true,

Deep down inside of you.

You'll reap what you sow,

Like you've never been told.

Without you I feel weak,

With secrets I couldn't keep.

This shadow knows how to haunt,

It's secrets are kept down within.

Could you feel it there,

It's deep inside the darkness.

I tremble in fear,

Turning twenty, twenty.

Time keeps ticking,

On and on.

~The Ocean Is Drowning~

The ocean drowns in it's emotional state

Tides rip and crash in its wake

The waves do not ripple fast

From tundras far and seas apart

Awake is he from river with glee

He waits oh he waits

By the lonely sea

Thinking of a sin

A concept, another

Trapped within thoughts

My reality, is lost

The concept of time is vague and real

Always by your side but never still

Emotions unravel from pain and loss

Until we learn the lesson

We will pay the cost

Breaking yourself down

But building yourself up

To build a concept

Of beauty and grace

To understand a lesson

We'd rather not face

This ocean is drowning

I can feel my breath burn

As I grieve with the air

Gasping for something

Anything if it found release

I swallow every last part of me

As rescue never arrived

I gasped and died

The ocean is drowning

But it’s formless and free

Not fragile or broken

Forever boundless

And free

But maybe it's more

A concept

A tree

A gateway to something

More inviting

Something exciting

That exists

The ocean is drowning

You can feel the earth tremble

Trembling, trembling

I can hear the ground shake

And quiver

Quivering, quivering

We all saw the plates shatter

And bang

Bang, bang

Bubbles rose to the tips of the sky

You screamed

I was shy

An impending earthquake

That shook and shook

Tectonic plates

Rattled from far

Too weary to listen

A criminal of suspension

No bad intentions

But drowning had happened

And the ocean was dying

~Prickly Love~

I turn around to face you.

In the corner I just want to taste you.

Hold you against my bare chest.

Whisper secrets into your ears.

Let you know that I'll never let go.

But keeping you in my heart, my mind.

Your aura is captivating, so strong.

I wish you knew how much I've missed you, it's been too long.

These shots are dangerous,

But this moment is simply marvelous.

The seconds tick slowly away,

As I fade back to yesterday.

Could you give me a reason to let you go.

I don’t want to, but I have to, I know.

It hurts to feel this way, so into you.

Feel like I'm bleeding, no escape from you.

How sour can you be, to let this pain persist.

To not give me a second chance or even a sign of relief.

I'm so into you, captivated to say the least.

You bring out a fire in me, a bloody beast that cannot be tamed.

I want to be all yours, as you become all mine.

A moment that will last countless lifetimes.

I can treat you well, I can make it things right.

Show you I mean well, I wanna make your night.

Leave the lights off, and come closer.

Please don’t make me ask, a plea, from me.

The rain hurts so let my umbrella cover your pain.

To shield what you think will hurt you.

You're so gentle, unbelievably kind.

Selfless is putting it lightly, it's almost unsightly.

As beautiful as a cactus you are sharp & strong.

Protective of yourself.

Never letting the world keep you down.

Admirable darling.

Tough & keen, you know exactly what I mean.

I gaze upon your lovely face and burst at the seams.

~Quill~

The pen that I compose with

Will soon run out of ink

It'll bleed through the pages

More than you think

These words that I write

Are not wrong nor right

But as the wisdom shines through

You might just see the light

False gods, clinging to their faith

Filthy angels singing to their dead

Unworthy of my words

I'll sing with this dread

The pages are torn

But the secrets are yours

Philosophical views

The last to be born

A child of the gods

Forsaken at his birth

He yearned for a future

Of something with girth

False gods, clinging to their faith

Filthy angels, singing to their dead

Unworthy of my words

I'll sing with this dread

Held onto his values

He wrote, he grew

He blindly followed

What he never knew

The battle he faces

Is not false or true

But everything he does

He does for you

False gods, clinging to their faith

Filthy angels singing to their dead

Unworthy of my words

I'll sing with this dread

These words I compose

Are simple and true

In the name of the gods

I'll compose for you

~False Hope~

You call yourself a thief

You claim to be a liar

How far you've fallen

For sentimental desires

The adrenaline rush fades

Once the deed is done

Your perspective has changed

Or perhaps its shifted, deranged

I don't feel sorry for you

No, I don't feel sorry for your kind

You can rust like metal

Sitting in a storm you created

I don't pity you at all

No, I don't pity how far you've fallen

You can rot in hell

Burning beside your throne of lies

Once a petty thief

Now a king of cons

No trust ever given

None ever taken

How far will you fall

Before the darkness takes you

Will you be consumed

Or simply swallowed

~Rapture~

I want to break free from these chains

They've bound me in the heavens

So I plea, to the false gods

Waiting for my time to come

I wait, for their hand

To fall onto me

The touch it never comes

I'm way too high strung

It's a rapture

And I'm waiting to be captured

It's a rapture

I'm trapped in your chapter

Where do the gods pray when all is lost

How do they cope without a single cost

Sacrifice your innocence

For a drop of blissful ignorance

Toss away your soul to them

Pray they'll take your scars to mend

But they won't go unpaid

No they won't be afraid

To take away all that you love

Lock it away on the wings of a dove

It's a rapture

And I'm waiting to be captured

It's a rapture

I'm trapped in your chapter

Alone, alone, alone I will walk

Alone, alone, alone I will walk

To the gods.

~Pool of Thoughts~

I'm stuck inside a pool

Filled with single thoughts

Of you

My darling

I'm drowning in what I think is love

I can hear the distant sound

Of doves

You seem too distant

But perhaps

This scenario is too pleasant

So if you would

And if you could

Should you not walk with me

In a field of roses

I'm head over heels

My head is in the clouds

Too far for you to reach

But somehow you

Of all people

Have found a way

To breach me

You've kissed these lips

Under the torchlit night

On the beaches of the east and west

Did you forget the taste of my breath

As I have forgotten the taste of yours

Forgive me

I am out of place

But my mind is displaced

These memories left behind

Didn't leave a single trace

How am I to find my space

How am I to find anyone to replace

How am I to be myself once more?

So where does one man draw the line

Is it too late

Have I simply run out of time

This isn't at all how I expected life to be

It used to be so simple

You and me

Alone I sit

Thinking of the past we once had

And now that I think back to it

It wasn't half bad

The good times have passed

Sadly I knew

It just wouldn't last

I long to hold your hand

To walk with you along the coastline

Out of sight from minds that whine

Envious of your beauty

No doubt in my mind

~Smile~

You indicated with a smile

That you loved the way I dressed

You looked beyond beautiful

Of that I confessed

You're colder than you wish

I'm hotter than you thought

If the two were to collide

All would be lost

A smile was all I needed

My fears were simply heated

But that was too cold

I was shivering inside

Condemned by your reflection

I was an icicle in your mind

The weather became extreme

I was steaming at the seams

This was beyond my control

Your heart I was enrolled

You're colder than you wish

I'm hotter than you thought

If the two were to collide

All would be lost

A smile was all I needed

My fears were simply heated

~Can You Hear My Words~

Our eyes watch life as it passes

In a moment it's here

In a moment it's gone

Can you hear my words

As I speak them towards you

Can you open your closed mind

Give me a moment or two

Do you listen when I speak

Am I speaking to a brick wall

Waiting for a damn response

But I hear nothing at all

Open your eyes, look down inside

Life is passing you by, in the highway of your mind

Speeding away, faster than I can describe

Little do you realize, it's gone within time

Must I sing the words for you to listen

Must I yell the meaning for you to see

I mustn't have to

I mustn't have to

But that's how it seems to be

Can you hear my words

As I speak them towards you

Can you open your closed mind

Give me a moment or two

This state of mind is destroying yours

Clear your head, open those doors

To see clearly isn’t very hard

But to you it seems improbable

Must I sing the words for you to listen

Must I yell the meaning for you to see

I mustn't have to

I mustn't have to

But that's how it seems to be

Do you see what I mean

When you refuse to see reason

You'll fall apart in shambles

Destroy yourself like it’s treason

Can you hear my words

As I speak them towards you

Can you open your closed mind

Give me a moment or two

~Botanical Grove~

A collection of your inner thoughts

A hidden enclosure of your mind

If you walked through these halls

Would you take the time

To understand my ways

To grow with me inside

One step further

Another step closer

You'll see my growth

If you step through the vines

You'll see my hurting eyes

Just look down inside

Grow inside, by my side

Grow outside, outside your mind

Grow beside, beside my eyes

Grow to decide, decide your time

Embrace the jungle

As it envelopes your body

You're lost in the woods

An underdeveloped nobody

No control of your feelings

You rise towards the sun

Unable to move on your own

Controlled by the atmosphere

And its charming ways

One step further

Another step closer

You'll see my growth

If you step through the vines

You'll see my eyes

Just look down inside

Grow inside, by my side

Grow outside, outside your mind

Grow beside, beside my eyes

Grow to decide, decide your time

One step further

Another step closer

You'll see my growth

If you step through the vines

You'll see my eyes

Just look down inside

~Dark Halls~

My body constantly weeps

The sound of horrific creeps

I'm too damn scared

To take a simple peek

Around the darkened corner

Outside the window pane

But the widow looking at me

Wanted a taste

Wanted to come at me

I never let her near

No I never wrote a letter

For her

It didn't even matter

Crushing minds like dark matter

Selfish and impure

She was rancid for sure

We weren't scared before

No not scared at all

But so damn young

You never truly cared

So you chase what you wanted

And take what you needed

Everything around you

You consume like you always do

But it's not

That's a lie

You can gaze into my swollen eyes

I won't speak a single lie

I'll just bring you towards a demise

That may be too hard to comprehend

Or realize but alas its divine

To gaze into one's eyes

To see them as they are

The life within

The soul

I know your intentions

I watch how you walk

I see you peeking

Deep in the dark

You can't harm me

I'm motionless and free

But you'll always try

As if you think you can

I'll keep passing by

Not giving you the light of day

Or my precious time

So you can sit there

Watching and waiting for me to slip

But I'll assure you now

That's a waste of your time

Go somewhere else

To watch the days fly on by

Good morning or goodnight

Either way you need to clear from my sight

I'm not afraid to fight

Once I've taken it all in without fright

So come unto me

And I'll show you fear

I'll strip you of your sanity

Everything you hold dear

You'll be in a spot of disarray

Won't know whether its October or May

You'll forget how to count the days

The seconds are not there

Within your daze

But I'll help you up

Even with all my hatred

That's what I do

As a patron.

~Extracted Tears~

As the rain falls

It beckons to be collected

Waiting to be grasped

In all its wetness

As you collect what remains

Remember to be quick

For the rain will fall faster and faster

As the night drains itself away

Don't fear the overcast

Fear not knowing what will come of it

Hail will tumble from the heavens

As you speak in your tongue

A foreign language

I wish to hear sung

A figment of what you used to know

A memory that has long been forgotten

But never truly forgiven

Always in your thoughts

I wait for the perfect moment

To show my true self

Hoping maybe one day

You will open your dreary eyes

And look upon me

With regret and disarray

I wander the streets at night

Thinking to myself

Thinking that one day

I might understand the foreign existence

That is you

I wish to comprehend all that you are

To study

To observe

To extract

I'll collect the rain that falls

From your gloomy eyes

Just let me realize

I wish to feel alive and well

To feel myself for what I really am

Not just to understand

But to truly comprehend

All that I know of myself

Seems like a lie

Like a solemn thought left in the dark

Something that is real

Something I can comprehend

Something I can look back on

As truth

Although I am alone

In a world full of foes

Cruelty is everywhere

We're all completely scared

Race the sun if you would

Chase the clouds if you could

Do anything you please

As long as you never leave

I pray for a moment

Where we can be free

True to ourselves

But only for a moment

A moment that persists

But never truly lasts forever.

~Undone~

I met an angel

She walked with grace

I saw her glance at me

I fell on my face

Stumbled I did

Scared I was

But it was her beauty

It stuck out like a sore thumb

Looking dumb I tried to keep undone

But I felt lost, broken, and scared

Thinking the rejection was minutes away

But I just couldn't stay away

I wandered far and in between

All that ever was, that ever will be

To find a suitable reason

To learn your name, your favorite flower

But I forgot within minutes of learning

As if it was taboo to know you

But persistent I was

Trying hard because I knew

That you were the one I wanted

The one I needed

I tried to walk towards you

Asking you the littlest things

Hoping you would simply answer

Regardless of what it was

I knew

It was the cause of my effect towards you

A response was all I ever needed

And it's what you supplied

So I thank you

I thank you so very much.

Grateful to be ambitious.

Tempted to be myself.

Lost in a storm of thoughts.

What seems to race amongst the lost.

Where is the lantern,

Darkness is seeping.

Where is the cavern,

The end is reaching.

Bats are screeching,

While the water rises.

I race to the end of the truth,

Oblivious to how hard I might fall.

Always assuming I'll hear your call,

Knowing damn well I'll never see it at all.

~Shadows~

Hiding in these trenches

I can smell your fear

Sensing your shivers

I know that you're near

I stalk from afar, so very far

But somehow I'm close

Closer than your scars

Can you hear me now

As I speak down to you

Can you feel me now

As if I'm deja vu

Minding my business

I mind your presence

Watching your moves

Your life in the present

Can you see me now

As I'm staring at you

Can you smell me now

I reek like voodoo

I'm a shadow

I hide inside you

I'm a shadow

If you destroy me

You'll end your life too

I'll haunt your life

From these trenches I dwell

A cavernous creature

Surely I smell

I don't hide under bridges

Nor do I hide in plain sight

I creep into your mind

And I fill you with fright

Can you hear me now

As I speak down to you

Can you feel me now

As if I'm deja vu

Hiding in these trenches

I can smell your fear

Sensing your shivers

I know that you're near

Can you see me now

As I'm staring at you

Can you smell me now

I reek like voodoo

I'm a shadow

I hide inside you

I'm a shadow

If you destroy me

You'll end your life too

I'm a shadow

A shadow

~Beautiful Soul~

You were a beautiful soul

So careless, so free

Walked wherever you wanted

Did as you pleased

No words were ever spoken

But your body said it all

Now I'm sitting here broken

Wishing I could have done more to cushion the fall

I'm lost without you

I'm so fucking lost without you

Now you're gone forever

I've nothing to live for it seems

But I'll live, if it's in the name of you

Oh, I'll live, if it brings me closer

To you

To you

I close my eyes and I see your smile

I open my eyes and I see you're gone

Just a trick of the light

Its hurts being unable to fight

For you

For you

I'd give my soul a thousand times

If only it was allowed

To bring you back

From your everlasting slumber

I know you'll never wake up

And fuck that's hard to take in

I have to stay strong

I can't shed any more tears

Even after all these long years

I'll face my fears

Or at least try to

With just a single thought of you

I bring myself to my knees

In a river of tears

But I'll live, if it's in the name of you

Oh, I'll live, if it brings me closer

To you (to you)

To you (to you)

I close my eyes and I see your smile

I open my eyes and I see you're gone

Just a trick of the light

Its hurts being unable to fight

For you

For you

~Blind Pretenses~

I'm colorblind,

Alas, my words are blind.

I can see the false premise,

Coming against the broken tide.

But what I can fully see,

With my eyes sewed blind.

Is a shattered mind,

A hidden gem deep down inside.

The best of me has faded once again,

Left by the road for another to fend.

Another woman to ease my sorrow,

Another soul to pretend it's tomorrow.

The sun believes it's the moon,

But the flow of the river cannot feel.

The waves continue to crash around,

Can you hear its faint, distant sound.

If we could see what we wanted to see,

Then maybe we could begin the healing.

Until that one single moment comes,

I will bask in the sunlight kneeling.

Something was lost to me that day,

I don't think it was truly ever there.

What I do remember though,

Is that I shouldn't honestly care.

So I fade back to my old self,

Left upon a dusty old shelf.

I've left myself unattended for so long,

If only I could wipe myself of my wrongs.

If I could commit this one single task,

Then maybe I could begin to feel.

If I could see what I've done wrong,

Maybe I wouldn't be so blind.

~Snapped Chalk~

Good riddance to your eyes,

You rode this life for far too long.

Could you not see where it all ended,

Where the chalk line began.

Your body lay against the earth,

Broken and nude.

What would you soon inevitably wish for,

If the sky were to somehow fall.

With broken pieces of clouds,

Falling down like glass from heaven.

It'll take only a second,

To slice your heart into several pieces.

You once thought you were the world's center,

Until the gravitational force knocked you back.

Gravity brought you to your bloody knees,

You begged the gods for a solemn apology.

All you heard was cut off silence,

A whisper against your ears.

What aid would you need,

How much life could you knead.

Bringing this light out of me,

Pounding against my broken heart.

My moisture pouring out with each hit,

A thousand years of loneliness.

You were there physically,

Emotionally you were not.

I made a solemn decision,

To leave this place torn apart.

To leave you was harder the second time,

But after another reflection I finally knew.

That between us both,

Nothing was new.

I took my place here,

Broken and nude.

With a chalk outline of myself,

I wrote another story for myself.

Without you.

~It~

I slept at the bottom of the ocean,

The seafloor awoke me in its glory.

I could sense something was amiss,

The silence was hardly something to miss.

If I could walk against it's pressure,

Then I would walk for miles by my lonesome.

It only takes a heartbeat to realize you're gone,

Therefore you should watch where you step.

Initially I thought the sea was too salty,

Then I tasted it's core in the sand of it's floor.

I knew that it was where I was meant to be,

Taken away by it's tide, left broken and sore.

It was only for a singular purpose that I lay here,

Trying too hard to grasp for solidity.

Irrelevant breathing patterns broke me more,

Tingling my throat cords as I breathed in more.

It could have been so much worse,

To be here alone and so cold.

I could have been on land alone,

Thinking of the endless oceans current.

I didn't think this moisture would hurt me,

Then I realized that it surely did.

I could feel it's pain seep through my soul,

Timing the sand as it fell from my hands.

Instead of hoping for solace in my lonely,

There was something else I craved.

Indeed there was something more,

Tiny little pieces of your seafloor.

~Forgotten Lover~

Do you remember when we used to call each other names?

When we would scream till our throats were red.

When there seemed to be no end to the childish behaviors.

I do. I do. I do. I'm sorry.

It wasn't fair to drop such things onto you.

There were other ways to deal with your anger and mine.

If only I had known this years ago.

It's too late. Way too late. A few years too late.

I can't apologize for you, but I know you wouldn't want to anyway.

You know that you should've.

I suppose that shows who is the one that has grown since.

Not a day goes by that I don't reflect from my past mistakes.

There's no escaping this trauma but I know how to mold it into something I can utilize to build myself up.

Higher than I ever dreamed of being.

A plateau made of mistakes and hopes.

A plateau made of dreams and scars.

A plateau I've crafted myself.

I now stand tall, taller than the highest clouds in the atmosphere.

Feeling more alive than I used to when we were in love.

I haven't loved anyone since we were torn apart.

All I've loved is myself, unconditionally.

It's made me far happier than you could imagine.

It's a peculiar feeling, being sad and happy.

From one particular moment in our lives, feeling both ends of the spectrum.

It's invigorating. Everlasting. Never ending.

I've grown weary of not knowing how to love anyone again. It's been far too long since the sun has shone on my face.

Blinded by another beautiful soul.

Somebody to help me push myself further.

Someone I can help push to their limits.

Unconditional. Loving. Pure. Fantastic.

So many feelings built up for far too long.

Sitting by the rocky cliffs thinking about what I could have done to save us, if possible.

I would go to our special spots, spend days going everywhere we went and reminiscing one final time, not regretting what I ended.

I've moved on. Have you?

I remember the time when I first looked at your daring eyes. All I ever wanted was to stay locked in your gaze until I ran out of oxygen.

I didn't realize you'd steal my breath and not give it back.

We were beyond happy. I still wonder what happened to us. It will always boggle me, as to how our lives would have ended up if we were more civil, if we were more patient, or if we would just focus on building ourselves up instead of tearing each others walls down.

Knowing that most of the pieces couldn't be picked back up. At all. Some things aren't fixable. Some things can't be forgotten. Some things are better left unsaid.

I might still only have myself, but I now know that I am my best company, and I'm content for once.

Maybe one day, I'll meet a beautiful soul.

~Fiery Rosé~

I didn't want to stay cold any longer.

All I ever wanted was to feel your warmth.

Once more.

Just one more time.

Miles away from your skin.

But close enough to see your cold breath.

Emanating like a dragon's flaring nostrils.

With a roar to match it's ferocity.

If we could connect,

I would want us to stick together.

Like a frozen metal pipe,

Unyielding to all who grasp it.

If I could simmer on your burner,

For a while longer.

Maybe I would understand your temperature,

Your golden flame.

I would stoke your blaze,

Leaving you amazed.

But I know your gaze wouldn't pass my way,

Far too concerned every other day.

Just tell me one thing,

What was your name last time we spoke.

Was it the right time to ask you,

Or was it the final time to see you.

Her name was Rosé.

~Aquatic Romance~

I thought of the way she would smile, the way she looked, so full of glee. The thoughts I would have of her made me feel as if time could stand still, for a fleeting moment I began to feel myself, something amazing, almost free. To feel the way she made me feel, turned me upside down, it unraveled my world in many ways and I began to think to myself how I could sleep without her. Regardless of a certain distance, emotional and physical, there would always be a connection, even if it seems too faint to hold, it's a connection that can pass through many barriers, and it's the purest form of happiness. It's deep, and you have a sense of security that makes you calm, resonates with your soul. Every fiber of your being stands upright as if the sun was about to burst and for a fleeting moment you feel a sense of danger. And dangerous it is, but it's beautifully disastrous. You're overwhelmed with a positive feeling, a strong sensation that ripples your being. When I think of the way she used to smile, at me, I would smile more than I thought possible, I would cry, and I would feel amazing. How could I lose someone so caring, so precious, so serene, so elegant, so..... pure. She was the water to my basin, and without her, I would certainly run dry.

~Inhuman Beast~

Time was slipping, I was missing.

Where was I, how did I die.

I don’t remember, as I cry.

Do you remember, how I died?

These frozen sands, open glands.

Blistering heat, your stolen sweets.

I tried to keep it all, not missing what was important.

But instead of finding truth, I found pain and solace.

There was no escape from this disaster, in another life I would outlast her.

There were no seconds left, every second passing was another life stolen.

The hearts of few can reign more than storms, but the thunder still peaks.

From the valleys to the blistering heat, the cherished usually end up in bliss.

My vows were not broken, without them I would be lost.

A scattered man, left with nothing but a woe to wheep.

As I open both of my eyes, I hardly recognize my own face.

I am broken and without cause, a tragedy with claws.

Tears coming down my face, tears streaming from my eyes.

The reality I see in front of me, is tearing my world apart before my very eyes.

Could you wait just one more moment, I want you to know my truth.

I’m not the one I used to be, I’m sorry.

I've turned into this beast,

A shadow that cannot be tamed, or loved.

~Accidents~

When the waves stopped crashing around us, did you happen to think we would die?

Or did you always know, we'd end up alive.

I woke with a feeling of guilt, from what I had done to you.

Assuming I was innocent would be a bad idea.

But lately I've been full of them.

If only I had known you'd crawl out of my skin.

Maybe it's for the best, maybe it's a cancer.

A raging accident waiting to happen,

I'm anticipating each step along the way.

I was unaware that you'd strike first,

I always assumed you'd stay back.

Fighting was the last straw,

But still you wanted more.

I gave and I gave and I gave to you.

Everything you wanted… wanted.

Here I lay in my sickness,

Tarnished and broken.

If you could sing to me,

I'd still probably listen.

~Listen~

Are you listening to what I'm saying?

Can you ask me another question?

Would you be able to provide an answer?

What if it was the last time I'd repeat myself?

You're in your own little world,

Thinking that the real world isn't going to shake.

That the world is perfection,

An amazing and pure creation.

This blindness is hurting your mind,

Soon, you won't be able to hold it all in.

You'll need a release at some point,

And you won't remember what it all means.

What it means to be a person,

To be honest, loving, trustworthy.

To be guided by truth,

Built for excellence.

The thoughts projected are foggy,

Unclear since the start.

Who do you ask the questions,

When nobody wants to give the answers?

Sometimes the sky needs to fall,

For you to understand why the rain falls.

To clear your eyes of ignorance,

To rid yourself of uncertainty.

You want to be free from negativity,

You want to be free from the hate.

But you need to understand,

You can't make the hate go away.

There will always be differences,

Misunderstandings exist.

If you care to listen for a moment,

I promise you'll change your perspective.

You'll see a beauty that has been hidden,

But it's always been there.

Deep down you'll finally understand,

Why everything seems to weave together.

~Something~

There was a flame that soared through the clouds.

It awakened a small soul, sicker than most.

But there wasn't a lack of faith, if anything, there was a lack of hope.

Broken was it, never to be fixed by mortal hands this time around. Whenever the roads seemed to intersect, there was always a glimmer of something, something that would otherwise be hard to find.

There was no way to put it into words, it would do it no justice. Unless we could better comprehend it, it would remain a mystery forevermore.

As something rose deep from within, the strength of the fire seemed to rise bigger and bigger, as if waiting for a moment to grow past it's limitations.

The wind would beckon me home, as if it naturally rolled off the tip of the mountains, I could feel it's eternal embrace as if it was absolute.

A warm, welcoming solace that ran through my icy veins. Waiting for the fire to rise from my stomach.

The heat grew and grew, I was not allowed to feel it's warmth without first burning my hands and feet. The coal I walked on burned with each step forward.

But these drops of sweat from my head kept me from drying and cracking. I was pushed further and further to reach what I dreamed of, deep down.

Alas, with each climb, I felt more and more broken, as if there was something to learn from this progress. I digress, there couldn't be more than what I already knew. Or could there?

Drinking this last sip of drenched aching, I bled from my mouth and nose, waiting for something to push me further and further back down into the valley I once called home.

Young minds would often flicker back and forth, waiting for something to alert them of danger, to awaken their primal instincts. Making them act, helping their gears rotate to move the machine that is the human construct.

I glanced out of the broken window, thinking of something deeper than space, deeper than time, deeper than you, and deeper than I.

Was there such a thing, or was it simply make believe? I had to find out, even if it took my whole life, entirely.

My being would not stop till the gears broke from the shackles, moving on their own freedom, no restrictions or restraints to tie oneself down.

Without this fire to move the ashes, we would have to understand first, ourselves and the motivations that move and change us completely.

Young minds are left to wonder if the moment you live in is the last moment you loved. Or possibly the scariest moment of your meager existence.

But strength doesn't come in waves, it comes in fleeting sections within life. Once it's gone, it's never again going to exist the way it once had.

Does the man travel for several years to find a person he deems worthy of his love, or does he wander forever to deem himself worthy of himself. I feel this is the reality, the moment we strive for, the seconds we count down to.

What if it was just something more, something we could gaze back upon. Perhaps we'll never know, but one thing is for sure, there is no way to describe the fire deep down, no words will ever do it justice. Just make sure you do something.

~Possibly Another Time~

Was there a second that went by, that you didn't think of him.

A moment where you didn't remember his face.

Was there a second that went by, where you didn't think he would come back.

Maybe there was another time, another time where you didn't think of the past, and how it never did last.

As for us, I'd say there was more to it than words. More to this than life. A loft inside your hushed mind, waiting to be explored in peace, by someone other than me.

Did you want to go somewhere far away, where you could think about this all. Where you could find some quiet place to call familiar. A place you could be left to sit and ponder these unrelenting thoughts. A clouded mind that weeps for reflection.

I wanted to connect with the thought of everything, but also nothing. Maybe we could move between atoms, waiting for a chance to separate our bonds. The electricity was hotter than the cold winds. But I knew it wouldn't last long.

Perhaps another time, we could try again.

~Red~

I saw you standing next to the marble pillar,

You were waiting for something spontaneous.

You looked so excited, for reasons I couldn't guess. But I saw something in your eyes.

A rampant chaos that couldn't be tamed,

And I loved the simple thought of that.

I needed to gaze into your eyes,

Take the seconds to listen to your cries.

My calmest moments were when I glanced at your stance, the way that you held yourself.

It was pure and beautiful,

Elegant and thoughtful.

If someone were to judge a book by it's cover,

They would maybe judge you harder than you realize.

But when I read a novel,

I usually want to spend a good enough time on each page, learning it's quirks and desires.

By the point I reached your other chapters,

I knew I had to keep reading, keep learning.

Six long months had passed since we started talking,

With every waning moon, I needed to get closer.

A scarlet haired woman, with eyes deeper than mine,

I needed you by my side, forevermore.

Your positivity shined through the murky skies,

The way you danced before my gloomy eyes.

You were excited to speak to someone,

Somebody who wanted to hear your words.

I was forever aching to learn more of you,

Of your beautiful mind, inside and out.

What would it take to see you glistening again,

Against all odds you stood forever strong.

With a resolve that was stronger,

You made your weaknesses feel weak.

I had eyes to see, and ears to hear.

You had words to speak, and moments to capture.

I was envious of your design and creativity,

Always striving to find the better inside someone.

I could always do that,

But not as well as you.

Always wanting to learn from your mistakes,

I had to get to know you better and make it real.

Would you walk with me down a broken path,

To promise to never stop pushing forward.

Would you kill the ache inside my heart,

With the softness of your subtle tone.

Would you talk to me a little bit longer,

Lend me your ear in exchange for my heart.

My little Red.

~Teacups~

The teacup is too full,

I'm overwhelmed by its weight.

This feeling inside is heavy,

The liquid is burning my tongue.

It only ever spilled when I let it,

The water runs down the handle of my cup.

Around it's base,

A mark is left.

I figured there would be a singular moment,

Where the tea leaves didn't run dry.

I was faced with hard decisions,

About where I'd let the sun touch them.

I was to extract all the flavor,

Bring the leaves to tension.

My realization was the polar opposite,

I was to retract the moisture.

Would I be allowed to walk down these halls,

As the heaviness of my cup held me firm.

The ground seemed to be my only friend,

But towards the goal, it seemed to all end.

There were two paths that I could take,

One that is up, one that is down.

If only I had a speck of insight,

Maybe I could understand what it all meant.

I sipped my tea that early morning,

When the birds didn't know how to be silent.

I sat there alone with my thoughts,

When the sun didn't know how to fall.

The burning of tea leaves always smells sweet,

Anything sweeter would be a crime.

The cup would rain in my mouth,

Letting the leaves spill forth.

I sat there with only my self,

Left to think of what would happen.

Was I right to empty my cup,

Or was I wrong to let the leaves dry.

~Longing~

Longing for a sense of comfort,

Aching for a sense of ease.

All I've ever wanted was to feel not so alone,

But here I am, feeling way too alone.

I only ever shovel my thoughts into a corner,

Piling them up until the ceiling is reached.

And as I reach the ceiling I add even more,

Until the concrete breaks above my head.

As the concrete falls on my head,

I bury myself in my own tears.

I bury myself in my own fears,

The feeling of being alone haunts me.

The feeling of something real hurts me,

A feeling I wish I had, a feeling of purpose.

What do I wish I had, that I don't already have,

What could I do to make myself not so sad?

I'm glad, that I'm alive and wholesome,

I'm glad that I'm selfless and polite.

I'm sad, that I'm in my head more than not,

I'm sad, that I'm feeling the pain that I feel.

But at least I'm alive.

~Reality Might Be Real~

Things were different,

Life felt like a unique substance.

Something I wanted to taste,

But nothing I wanted to get too close to.

If I was here for only a singular moment,

Then maybe I could find the truth in this mess.

Alas, here I am at wits end,

Waiting for a meal on a silver platter.

I'm hungry, maybe even starving,

For something deep and possibly pure.

But where does a lonely soul search,

For such a sacred concept?

His mind might be his castle,

But it's nowhere near his own heart.

He might search for hours upon hours,

But he might never find a truth in his eyes.

As I walk down this broken asphalt,

I sense a light beckoning me forward.

A bright star aching for my human touch,

As I walk to its core, I am scared if it burns.

I can't help but listen to it's call,

Opening both my ear drums to it's world.

Knowing that I might never return to the now,

Knowing that maybe I might lose my mind.

I know the risks, I know the pain,

I am not afraid, I am not scared.

Today, I am beyond ready,

Today, I am myself.

~Salvation~

Digging for a sense of comfort,

I fell into the dirt, six feet deep.

I tried to scream for help,

Alas, nobody could hear my voice.

Trapped in a never ending cycle of pain and discomfort,

I grasped the walls on either side of me.

I couldn't find anything to hold onto,

So I held my breath for a while longer.

Light had disappeared into the clouds,

Night began to rise above my head.

Stars circled as the hours passed,

I stood there motionless forever.

My voice had grown hoarse from yelling,

I was on the brink of giving up.

There was nothing else for me to do,

No other way to possibly escape.

But then I remembered something,

Words my mother once told me.

Words I couldn't believe I'd forgotten,

The light began to rise above my head.

When you've fallen deeper than ever,

There's always a way to climb higher.

When the night grows stronger,

There's always a light to show you the way out.

I rose from my knees,

Covered in dirt, mud, and grass.

I gazed at the stars and looked for a way out,

I climbed my soul and this soil, higher and higher.

I saw a light that never diminished,

I saw a reason to never give in.

I grasped this fleeting thought,

And held onto it for dear life.

Climbing towards my everlasting salvation.

~Forgotten Regrets~

You trained all your thoughts,

Praying for a second chance at excellence.

You failed all your expectations,

Hoping for a third chance at modesty.

You walked these halls alone,

Glimmering chandeliers hanging above your head.

You ran your fingers across the walls,

Thinking of the terrible things you'd done.

If you could have forgiven your own life,

Would you still be able to walk straight?

An arrow could fly farther and farther,

Out of your reach with no aim in sight.

But still you falter,

Fading farther and farther from what you know.

Blistering your feet against this cold ground,

You walked farther and farther from yourself.

Isolated at once,

Wallowing in your second chance thoughts.

Do you still think that all is lost,

When the tiles beneath your feet are broken.

Never once had it crossed your mind,

Never thrived in this abundant grove.

Still you weep for me as I was sitting there,

Waiting for my time to come to me at last.

You didn't fail me at all,

You simply failed yourself.

For that you are mistaken,

For that you are sorry.

~Sandy Shores~

The creeks never settle,

Upon this ashen ground.

I sit but never settle,

Upon my swollen sounds.

Where art thou,

Please lend me your ear.

Before I sink into an abyss,

Lost and profound.

I won't add contextually,

But I'll persist further.

The touch is reminiscent,

Of autumnal leaves that fall.

Where this sacred ground lays,

I swear to the end of my grave.

A sinking battle against ocean tides,

It drowns me in it's pearlescent waves.

~Mean Something~

Something used to mean something,

Nowadays it feels like a fleeting moment.

The seconds passed by, again and again,

I waited for a reason to live again.

I backed away from the fleeting light,

Backing away from these glaring sights.

Would you sit back and relax as the world crumbled beneath your bare feet?

Or would you make a difference in your day to day?

It's all the same, everyday. Backing myself into a corner as I begin to fade.

We share the same signs, only this time, things seem worse.

The ships crash against the pulling tide,

Leaving nothing but death in its wake.

I'm drowning in this light, the sun is slowly hiding itself behind the clouds.

A memory remains in the stones I walk on, leaving no trace of life. All of it gone.

Is it too late to hate this world, or is it too late to make a difference in my life.

I'm craving answers, questions beckon me onward, toward something that means something.

~Moments Forgotten~

It’s been many moons since you passed me that night,

I sat by the river, drowning in my thoughts.

Unrealistic thinking had me caught in my own web

A place that was hard to escape, my restless mind.

Overthinking was not only my bane, but also my drive.

I focused on what I knew to be pure, beautiful, and true.

Everyone told me I was wrong, or that it would never happen.

But as I started making things happen, I knew they were all wrong.

So I pushed myself beyond my own limits, more than I knew I could.

I pushed harder everyday, waiting for the right moments.

The right opportunities to pass me by

I always seemed to know when those times occurred.

I could sense, I could feel, I could see the right from the wrong.

Nobody seemed to believe me as I spoke my truth.

But that would never stop me, as I was already driving forward.

There would be nothing to stop my motivation and determination.

I knew that the road I chose would bring me happiness.

So I never hesitated as I walked the fine line down the center.

I would never go right or left.

I would only follow my heart, even if it brought me to my end.

~I Wish To Love How I Wish To Love~

What does it mean to love someone who can’t love you back the way that you love them?

Is it just a waste of your energy, or is it a dream you chase in hopes that they will in time?

These are questions that we fail to ask ourselves, but we are fully aware of them.

We are blinded by the feeling of love, and it crushes all of our rational thoughts.

We can’t escape that rancid feeling of not knowing someone's true intentions.

The mask they wear, to hide their malice, and their fake love.

To be strong, is to recognize this false identity, and to also face it properly.

You can’t let yourself be controlled by someone who doesn’t care about you.

You are all that you have in this world, when nobody is around.

So why would you not want to flourish, water yourself with love and care.

You will see that in time, you will bloom beyond your own limits

And shoot for the stars, that you so rightfully deserve.

Aim high, I believe in you.

~Tame The Beast In Me~

Tame me like the animal that I am

I have ravaged many in my time alive

But now I am ready to give you my all

I’m finished living on my own

I was once a dire wolf

Discarded by many of whom I once held dear

They never knew how to love

And pushed me away to what I am today

But now I feel different

I feel as if you were the one that I needed

The timing feels so right

The moment could last forever

And I wouldn’t mind at all

Tame me and mold me into a man

Someone I can look up to

Someone new that I can become

With you by my side

I feel as if I can do anything

Without any regrets

Without any pain

You are my solace

I’d ride with you till the end of our days

And if that end means the end of my life

I will die knowing that I was a changed man

And that alone will feed my once animalistic appetite

The seconds pass by slower when I’m with you

You make every moment matter to me

And I only wish to live in this moment with you

For as long as I breathe

You are my one and only breath

I will inhale your love and exhale my own unto you

My darling

My everything that I hold dear.

~Tremble~

I shiver, I quake

I move about, filled with all this harbored hate

What have I caused?

What storm have I wrought?

The clouds grow heavy over my head

Lightning cackles under this moonlit night

A raging beast has been stirred

I haven’t the strength to hold it back

My limbs grow weak by the second

My sight is slowly slipping away

I can hear the howl of the winds

Piercing my ears unlike anything I’d ever heard

A scream for help

A desperate plea

A lost lamb forsaken by his gods

Was there a way out?

An angel had graced me with her presence

Was this the end of my road

Was this the end of my world

Was this…

~Lily~

Lily petal roasting atop it's kingdom

Hovering over waters deeper than Atlantis

A watery protection from any harm

A safe passage atop the surface

No harm could pass

A haven for a petal so pure

A precious gem in a dangerous world

~Universe~

My benevolence is awakened.

My sunshine has dimmed.

Although the rain may fall, the summer leaves will not change.

For it is he who walks past the flowers,

Waiting for the petals to become his bane.

The timing is correct,

The moon is in effect.

As the waves crash on my doorstep, I accept it with blind faithfulness.

For I am all, and all is me. 💙