Control

TW: Eating disorder behaviors

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It's a struggle that I have everyday

It was my only sense of control

Until recently

Now it seems like it controls me

I skip meals since it hurts to purge

My throat is sore from the control I had

My life revolves around this illness

It's scary to know this can kill me

All I wanted was control of something

But I managed to lose even that

Now it's just pain and suffering

I'm dizzy from not eating

But guilty when I do

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If you or someone you know is struggling with any eating disorder, please seek help. They are deadly, no matter what one it is.