Control
My struggle with bulimia
TW: Eating disorder behaviors
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It's a struggle that I have everyday
It was my only sense of control
Until recently
Now it seems like it controls me
I skip meals since it hurts to purge
My throat is sore from the control I had
My life revolves around this illness
It's scary to know this can kill me
All I wanted was control of something
But I managed to lose even that
Now it's just pain and suffering
I'm dizzy from not eating
But guilty when I do
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If you or someone you know is struggling with any eating disorder, please seek help. They are deadly, no matter what one it is.
About the Creator
Rene Peters
I write what I know, usually in the form of poetry. I tend to lean towards mental health, epilepsy, and loss/grieving.
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Comments (13)
Then there is the opposite, overeating. We just need to find balance and stick with it. Both are hard, so best of luck to anyone with any disorder. Prayers and blessings for peace with it all.
I saw my younger self in these lines. I haven't starved myself in years (evident from my picture) but still when I feel my life spinning out of my control, that is my first response. I eventually learned that the ultimate control is being able to overcome this demon. I hope you will find that strength too.
Well done! And congrats on Top Story!
Oh, that must be so hard; I hope it clears for you. Nice poem. ❣️
Congrats on Top Story!🥳🥳🥳
This was beautiful! Congrats on your Top Story <3 <3
Back to say congratulations on your Top Story! 🎉💖🎊🎉💖🎊
Terrific work! Keep it going—congratulations!
Congratulations on Top Story!!! Seeking and getting help is important, your poem spotlights the issue. Sending hugs!!!😶🌫️😶🌫️😶🌫️
Glad you have brought attention to this topic...more prevalent than is recognized.
It sucks when we lose our sense of control. I'm so sorry because I really don't know how to help you with this 🥺
Sending support for these deep words
Wow, there is a lot more depth to this poem than meets the eye, and it really shines a light on the dangers and thought process of someone going through this. Thank you so much for writing and sharing this, Rene. This is well done!