Contrition
the more I do this, the eerier it gets...
Contrition
Brough out my best and my worst
When I close my eyes, it hurts...
To remember the mistakes I've made.
Stood by and watched it wilt
Now I sit with this guilt
Still don't know if this feeling will fade.
Never thought that a flower
Could have such a power
Warms my soul, with a simple gaze.
But the timing wasn't right
Now I'm left without sight
As I'm pulled under, by the force of the wave.
Lashing and smashing
They just keep crashing
This never ending,
Invading presence.
Though we shouldn't play with fire
I couldn't help these desires
And I lost the battle to temptation.
Couldn't find myself
Through all that I felt
Somehow left stranded, in an ocean.
And though this open sea
Is so clear to me...
My thoughts remain filled with doubt.
As I keep on swimming
A compass is spinning...
Will it point north, east, west, or south?
I think my lack of mettle
Is why it won't settle
Confused by this swirling Abyss.
The deep is always seductive
But it's so unproductive...
To HOLD ON to a single wish.
My burdens weigh me down
If I hold on, I may drown
But the thought of letting go, feels the same.
So... Can I survive
These thunderous tides?
Keep my head afloat... while remaining sane.
So I'll try to find my bearings
Even though I'm wearing
This pain and regret on my sleeve.
The only thing left to do
Is move forward and keep true
To my instincts... and what my heart
BELIEVES
About the Creator
SalAmaNdeR
Hello : ,
I'm just hoping to find a place to share my thoughts and feelings... Even the darker ones...
Maybe even get some feedback/constructive criticism.
It'd also be pretty awesome if I was able to reach a few people.
I'd like that : ,
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