I've been talking to a friend
About Connection,
The importance of
Community,
How hard I tried
Not to need
Anybody
For so long,
How impossible it had
Become.
This silly little life
Is all about
The Story,
Not just mine
But EVERYBODY'S.
We all have our experiences,
And the only way to learn
Is from
Each
Other.
***
I was so sure
I knew the answer:
If I didn't get attached
I wouldn't be hurt,
If I kept one foot out the door
I couldn't be trapped.
If I showed only
What they wanted to see
They'd never leave me.
It was a lie.
By staying isolated,
Hiding my face,
I couldn't live fully,
Instead of losing,
I was simply gaining
Nothing.
The world shrank
To a tiny pinprick,
My heart behind walls
(protected and small)
Numb to pain and joy,
Sorrow and happiness,
But there is no light
Without the darkness.
***
I'm opening up,
My heart, my mind,
And I am
Terrified.
All these ideas and feelings
I'd had in childhood and
Cast aside
Coming back full-force
And blazingly bright.
The fires are lit,
And I don't know where
My Story is headed
But, by God,
I'm so glad you're
A part of it.
About the Creator
Bex Jordan
She/They. Writer. Gardener. Cat-Lover. Nerd. Always looking up at the sky or down at the ground.
Profile photo by Román Anaya.
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"Instead of losing I was simply gaining nothing" WOW. Powerful stuff. Beautiful poetry
If I didn't get attached I wouldn't be hurt, If I kept one foot out the door I couldn't be trapped. I'm still in this stage right here. Human connections are just too terrifying! Loved your poem!
Uplifting and perfectly stated bitter-sweetly. I felt the isolation and difficulty in the previous ones, but they all form a beautiful arc. Great expression of humanity.
aw Bex, this is sad, beautiful but full of hope! Glad you're in a better place now!