Where have my mistakes led me?
Where will they take me?
What an adventure have I lived that
Only my secrets have known.
I think in wild thoughts like dreams
My soul and spirit abide together
Unwed lovers hiding in secret
In pain, in heat, in passion
My desire and will in cahoots
A plot to bring me to my knees
An elaborate dance, sword fighting
Choreographed to be beautiful
And deadly
I know they cannot coexist
For long.
The clanging metal rings in
My ears, they bleed from the stress.
They eat up the lies they feed themselves
And turn their noses up at the truth
Too gluttonous to stomach any more.
The insults still cut through my heart,
The hateful shouting still haunts my mind
Ghosts past, vengeful spirits lay quietly
In the back of my being, I do not know
If they want to spring out again.
I cannot see any more than a blind man
Indignant and righteous in his stubborn ways
I thirst for true redemption but
Wet my lips with distraction
Stumbling along the path of my days.
Blinding light, hurtful truth ignored and hated, even.
Scars have left me storied and beautified.
Sun spots streak across the canvas of my chest
Aging, though premature, starts to show
The immature child-girl-woman
Who once wasn’t, is not, and never will be again.
I changed. Too many times, too many
I failed to see the error of my ways
And yet all I do is doubt the decisions I
Have already made.
Suggestions like unexpected knives pierce
The muteness in my empty head.
I am much too sensitive to listen.
The figures over my shoulders
Have entirely too much to say,
And I, nothing at all.
Where have my mistakes led me?
Where will they take me now?
What can I do anymore to avoid
All this humanity welling up inside
My fragile and tired body?
About the Creator
Emily Dickerson
Hopeful and young, full of love. From my heart high praises are sung. For this reason I am here: to love and serve and bring all souls near. <3
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