compulsions/convulsions
colour is pride challenge
the aroma of bubbling berries wafts through the kitchen,
and soon lips are stained a deep mulberry wine,
and I smile,
easing smarting hands from oven mitts beneath the table,
knuckles chafed red and raw,
because pastry that burrows under nails
is an unwelcome guest at this table.
I can taste salt in the air,
and see the foam-white crests of waves breaking on the beach:
golden sand strewn with seashells dipped in sunset,
kissed by glittering turquoise waters, as they ebb and flow.
I would gladly drown myself in those endless depths,
just to escape the scrape of sand against my skin.
I had heard that the woods were
peaceful.
a world full of birdsong and babbling brooks,
that blossomed beneath an emerald canopy,
where we could toast marshmallows over a campfire,
till they became clouds with singed edges
that could be torn apart by sticky fingers.
If I doused myself in those merrily crackling flames,
would I finally be free?
of the dirt that clings so closely to me?
The hollows of my eyes have grown bruise-blue.
The skin of my arms is cracked and grey
(and crimson where it splits).
soap turned into an enemy, from the friend I once knew,
its iridescent bubbles are corrosive now too.
if I could I would turn back the clocks:
To a girl who coaxed a ladybug onto her toddler fingers,
and marvelled at its shiny black spots.
To a girl who ran laughing through the sprinklers,
chasing after rainbows under an unforgiving sun.
To a girl who had yet to spend her life,
scrubbing away the remnants of her potential.
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