community

i do community service

for all the boys

looking for their wives

while they find them

and listen to them moan.

maybe then

the father who

made me

(not the ones i call daddy)

will think i am not

useless.

i know i am

delusional

but not entirely

because i know.

i get bored too fast

fall in love too fast

and i don’t want kids.

my life looks like

the exact opposite

of my mother’s dreams.

i speak my mind

and i am not sorry.

i have been

too many places

and known too many people

and i still don’t

know me.

(just that

i can make

men happy)

and that

maybe i will never know

but i will never stop

wanting to.