To my Ex Best Friend,
❀
Last year you told me you’d never leave
It was snowing inside and
A wildfire was lapping at the doors
And you said you’d stay
No matter what
❀
Yesterday I checked the spot beside me
The space you used to fill
And found a hollowing kind
Of absence in your place
❀
Months ago, your kind face warped
Into one of indifference and
All I could do was watch
You were hurriedly burying your empathy
And I was trying desperately to
Wrestle the shovel from your grip
But you were more than happy
To use your bare hands
When they were covered in dirt and scratches
You used them to push me away
A shockingly unfamiliar look
Of carelessness in your eyes
❀
You used to be the softest person I knew
Soft like the soil flowers grow in
Soft like the trampoline mat
That transports me to the sky
Soft like the wings of a dove
You used to be the kind of person
Whose reassurance you could sink into
Your words and embraces were comforting
But never so much as your presence itself
❀
Somewhere along the way
You decided softness equalled weakness
Somewhere along the way you
Whittled away your compassion
And turned it into something
With sharp edges
❀
Now, you are all hard lines
Rough exterior and numb eyes
The kind of soil flowers wilt in
The kind of armour that
Suffocates rather than protects
The kind of ground bones break on
❀
You used to be the warmest person I knew
Warm as sunlight
Warm as firelight
Warm as the softest fabric
You were the kind of warmth
People crave no matter the weather
The kind of warmth that
Provides a golden glow
The kind of warmth that emanates safety
❀
Somewhere along the way warmth turned to heat
But with the temperature increasing
So slowly and gradually
I didn’t realise I was burning until
It was too late
Even then I stayed
Like you promised you would
❀
Yet now, you are cold
Cold like a winter wind that blows relentlessly
Cold like the darkest night
Cold like frozen water
How are you not shivering?
How are you not cracking apart like I am?
❀
You have turned to ice and
I wonder if that makes me
The Titanic
❀
Last year you made promises and
Months ago you broken them and
Today I am still trying
To breathe through the abandonment
❀
I am the consistency of dusk and dawn
And I refuse to resent myself for
You leaving when, despite
Your flaws and mine
I stayed by your side
Through every kind of changing weather
Even the kind that happened inside you
❀
Last year I was happy
Months ago I was broken
Today I am healing
Tomorrow I will be too
❀
From,
The one you gave up on.
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And my poetry book Wasted Love.
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Angry, bitter, filled with resentment over promises broken & hope unfulfilled, but filled with a resilience that survives the devastation & comes out the other side with healing & increasing strength..., ...& joy..., joy that will not be denied.
This was poignant and beautiful I loved that you ended with time healing the wound. Well done!
Nice piece ✨😉