I tell my students that my classroom is a safe space,
a shelter,
a sanctuary,
but the lie grinds my teeth
and sticks in my throat
like stale PB&J from the lunchline.
but Truth is harsher than Fiction
and in this system
standardized tests have more security than my students
so we prepare their young minds
with lessons designed
to teach them to survive
curriculum improvised
while we teach with hands tied
in Physics
we learn
how to measure the velocity
of a round fired
from an AR-15
from 20 feet away
so they can brace for impact
in History and Economics
we read about men
with names like Remington
Winchester
Smith & Wesson
and practice calculating the amount of equity
lawmakers have secured in the nra
in Math
we teach word problems.
“if Sally is in first grade
and Billy is in seventh grade,
what is the probability
that they will survive a school shooting?”
or
“if there are 30 students in Ms. Smith’s class
and there is one active shooter
2 doors down the hall
in Mr. Jones’ room,
how long will it take the police to arrive
and take him down?”
in PE
students run sprints
instead of the mile
in hopes of being fast enough
to outrun a bullet
and in ELA
my students just wrote
their own eulogies
just in case
they are next
i tell my students
that my classroom is a safe space,
a shelter,
a sanctuary,
but the lie grinds my teeth
and sticks in my throat
like shrapnel
because the reality is that
Columbine
Virginia Tech
Sandy Hook
Parkland
Uvalde
And Nashville
tell a different story
that once upon a time,
in a land long forgotten
schools were safe,
havens of learning
edens of ideas
but the big bad wolves of Washington
huffed and puffed
about imagined infringements
until all the little children
were blown away
because the wolves were too busy banning books
instead of bullets
About the Creator
Sara Little
Writer and high school English teacher seeking to empower and inspire young creatives, especially of the LGBTQIA+ community
Comments (1)
God, the book banning line is so real. Amazing and heartbreaking work here. The fear is real.