There were moments of premonition
in that dark pizza parlor;
us seated tête-á-tête to meet,
our friends like nervous bettors
to a ring. I can’t remember
what I said, but there it was:
the folding of your chin, nose
sloping and showing off
its perfect proportions. And
for the main event…
your eyes lowered and peering,
could I even say what color
or just that they were piercing?
How long could it have lasted,
a couple seconds, maybe?
Perhaps less, just a flash and
my mind, expecting death, tried
to extend it for an eternity.
Then came the months of waiting,
of running, of endless reading,
of lying like a dog in the sand
and trying to think like one too,
for what’s out of sight cannot hurt you.
But no, this recollection visited me
many days, these days
the busy world was billowing
plagues to keep me from you.
(How the world selfishly shrinks when you
find the one you love; its trick, of course,
is that soon every sunlit beech tree
or the animating of windswept sand
and the lengthening of shadows down
autumn streets, pulls you, unfolds
your origami mind and drags you
like a kite, a wind jerking you around until
your psychic map is forced to confess there
is more everything, everywhere you had not seen.)
Now I think what could possibly
have prompted your facial posture
that long-ago winter night since I’ve
seen it again in all its magic & glory:
We were in the bathtub—candles
at the sink, Bandol at the ready,
Walden in the air and a waterspout
jammed into my back. I lied and
said I’m fine, just happy to have
a reason to lean over you. Then,
everything else stopped and I
held your heart under my palm;
you, so severe, your face cast,
angled down and I could only
draw sharp and shallow breaths.
And you told me you loved me.
I’m sorry I laughed. In this way,
I am your opposite, a fool,
all gravitas eludes me. But I
told you the truth: I am just
so happy. Let us sit here, soaking,
this reverse séance, a magnified
and glowing manifestation of
what once almost was and
now is all there is—feels
hyper real and that I am dreaming.
About the Creator
Paul Fey
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