I am fixed, before the door, soft yellow,
your love of buttercups
the bright rage of summer to combat the dark and cold
The colour has faded, chipped along the edge
how you stood there determined,
paint on your nose,
more on you than on the door
When in we moved, first,
you were indeed proud
No longer shiny,
the brass knob is worn,
a thousand times it turned
I hold it like the first,
You were anxious
we wouldn’t get it right
Only last week the reminder
the door creaks, oil the hinges
I step into the hall,
Afraid to breathe,
But giving in, need burning
I inhale, burning
Citrus and bergamot
And to my knees, and on my knees, and lying
Heaving, gasping,
undercoming,
comforting
Two paper cranes,
Dance, the shadows of their former selves
a mobile you placed for the day that I should ask
if we called this home
It is as though
I can still hear your voice in the kitchen
And see you in the garden raging bright,
speaking with birds
The flayer of the page and like the blade sliding astride my warmth
I taste you in the time lapse, the missive from the dark and cold
The smell of you like pigment, permeates all,
a thousand times you turn
About the Creator
Christina Barber
Vancouver, Canada
@lille_sol
@canuckreader
Publications:
“Alone in an Empty Room” https://www.thecreativezine.org/issue1
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