chickens don't menstruate

are they foetuses or are they chicken periods?

aunt lydia was right; the horrifying can become ordinary

can the ordinary become horrifying?

i think so. i think that is the greatest trick to pull.

didn't hitchcock say something like that?

make the commonplace terrifying?

make the dark funny. make the weird sexy.

it's how to pull people in.

swallow them up.

whole.

into a hole.

making a new whole out of me.

like a chimera. chomp chomp.

chimp with a typewriter.

hitchcock. attwood.

round and round

spinning, dizzy.

do i have any thoughts of my own?

are they all just the results of social brownian motion?

like an AI, forever pulling from what already exists

am i in here at all

or am i a mish mash of everyone else

if I was a robot, would I even know it?

eating omlettes

with fake cheese

wiping melted butter off my chin

spinning candy floss from this mess of other people's thoughts in my head

the ordinary can be confusing

and

the horrifying can be delicious

and

that's how I know I'm human

i think

one little person pinging from one thought to another

to cake