Broken
A poem about astral projection romance and the cruel effects of it.
I laid my head upon my pillow and my eyes shut tightly
surrounded by darkness of night, not a sound could truly harm me
yet as I lay with in the confines of my bed
in warmth and security, hoping to drift off to sleep
I felt him, he man unknown yet known
I stepped into my room I heard his footsteps upon the floor
he spoke softly with that usual voice so polite and well spoken
just a simple word at first, a simple "Hello my love."
But I remained still and silent, drifting into sleep
I could feel my body becoming more and more heavier
as though I was starting to float within the depths of my bed
but I felt the duvet over me, a safety of warmth and comfort
yet the foot of the bed either side of my feet
I felt pressure as if someone was slowly crawling over me
high and high they crawled, until I could feel his breath on my face.
A gentle kiss upon my cheek but a soft whisper within my ear
"I know your asleep yet we are both here, this is the realm between"
his words curled their way into my mind
I did not open my eyes
I did not want to know if he was truly there or not
I can smell his cologne, feel his breath upon my neck
even feel his delicate fingers move my hair from my face
his lips once more place another kiss, yet this time upon my own lips.
Am I trapped in this world of the astral realm?
Curse to love spiritual forms that I shall never meet?
I have met his form of spirit, I know him to a point
but realistically I shall never meet him in the waking state
do not tell me to have faith, do not say to be positive
for if you too felt this love and felt the astral form you too would know
the realms of astral and waking forms are cruel
for within the astral state there is nothing that can stop a spirit meeting.
And yet here he is once again, this cruel astral form of a man
so loved, so desired, but yet he is silent of those questions I may ask
I feel him once again kiss me, gently blowing air on my face
its clear he wises me to open my eyes, yet how can I?
I know if I open my eyes I will fall once again in to the trap of loving him
that is not right, when millions of miles away he is laying with another
it would be wrong to be jealous for the astral form is what it is
and astral travel can be crawl linking spirit with spirit
but I would be a fool if I said I do not want him
or that I do not feel love for him.
I feel him once again move to my ear lightly tugging at the duvet
it is clear he wishes attention from me
no amount of my ignorance will remove him
I can feel him leaning down close to my ear once again
his voice still as sweet as before "Why do you ignore me?"
however sweet his voice, there is a slight pain to it
as though my ignorance is cruel to him
but how can I continue to shared experience in the astral?
Surely it is wrong? If not, then it is truly cruel
for my heart can not bare this any longer
knowing I love him and shall never meet him within the waking state.
I feel him once again kiss my neck
and as he does so I carefully move again
I can feel tears beginning to fall from my eyes
his hand brushing them from my face
as I look up to him in this astral state
"How can we continue when we will never be?" I say still gazing at him
it is clear my words have taken him back as he moves away from me
confused by my statement, yet he does not leave
nor does he seem angry, he merely sits beside me naked looking at me.
It is clear by his own eyes that he are filled with pain
"Do you not care for me? Do you not share love like you did before?"
his voice clearly filled with more hurt than before
so much so that I can not help but look away from him
my heart shattered by sorrow and pain
"I love you but I can not have you, we are only together in the astral"
I reply slowly almost cautiously
but my words do not make him leave
instead he moves forward kissing me once again as I kiss him back
feeling his hand cupping my face while his eyes look directly at my own
"They need never know where our hearts truly lie for these is the realm where all spirits can connect truly with each other"
his voice giving confidence and comfort before once again kissing me
pushing me back on the bed, cuddling me and protecting me.
But yet that is the astral and each morning I wake alone,
the astral realm is cruel and I wish I could lock myself away from it
and cruelly for his benefit, kept away from him in the astral realms
yet I shall awaken once again
and no doubt I shall drift to the astral state once again too
I just wish the pain was not there.
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