Breathe

I find myself not breathing. Sometimes literally. Walking around. Going about my day. Handling my business. Realizing that I am not breathing. Not breathing! Just breathe..... Sometimes..... sometimes, it's my soul not breathing. I'm still walking around. Going about my day. Handling my business. Realizing that my soul feels stuck.... waiting....not breathing. Waiting for the next thing to happen. My soul trying so hard to convince my brain that the next thing that happens will be good..... positive.....happy.....a blessing. I'm grateful for what I do have though. What I have. Who I have. Cause couldn't it always be worse? Gotta recognize the good that is there that gets you through it. The good that gives you that glimmer of hope. The good reminding your soul to keep breathing. It's hard though when life has shown you a different hand. When the trials that come seem so.... Frequent...... exhausting.....never ending.....soul crushing. I tell myself that if my soul keeps telling my brain over and over that eventually it will believe it. Just keep breathing. Good is coming. Peace is coming. You deserve it. You deserve it. You deserve it. While I wait, always waiting, I keep walking around. Going about my day. Handling my business......reminding myself to breathe. Just breathe. Just breathe.