Bliss

I've been stopping myself from loving anyone else,

Afraid that it would be too much for you.

But I don't belong to anyone else,

Certainly not you.

We drove for miles and miles getting fatter and fatter and I thought that was bliss.

But now I can see the forest for your lonely tree and it's on fire and burning down everything we see.

I no longer find bliss beneath your shelter.

Bliss is contained within me and not you,

Never you.

I realised a long time ago but my guts flipped and ignored.

Really, who is to blame?

Turns out I couldn't manage it,

Turns out I had no obligation to manage you at all.

So I will slowly let go of your smell,

And I'll delete your number and never check your page.

I will keep the walls I have built,

But I will learn to put in doors.

I will spend time healing me,

Instead of healing you.