Big Teeth
In this cloying and immaculately dressed
and politely laughing room brimful of hidden, idle hostility
you are looking at space
because nobody is in it
and rabidly filling it
with chitter chatter & tattle-tale titbits
rumours & uncharitable extrapolations
the Ins and Outs of personal lives
ugly little pits they take turns
spitting them out at anything beautiful or happy
an occult circle, a stable of conspirators
"..I wouldn't even say anything at all if
I wasn't so worried about him, you know that..."
small town talk comes rarely to your face (unless about money)
turning a red cheek and sticking out a weak chin
script makes sense when you're the hero of your own movie
you know what I mean
I can navigate the swamp better as I get older
but I do admit that on the mad, bad nights when black dog's growling
buzzing, razor toothed circular mind-saw-machine grows its spidery arms
and beneath mandibes the freezing eyes in a distantly dead stare
it craves the chaos of old habits
feeds off the whine of my impending panic attack
and in such an indeterminate period so full of pure, illogial despair
oh boy, I'd blast the bastard away with my party flamethrower
I would snort and sköl and swallow and smoke and shoot
and then black out when my furtive scoffing of secret sweets made me sick
waking 40 hours later to the slack face in the mirror
the loss of joy and wonder and the dry death of conversation
and nobody is left cheering you on as you redesign the world
and take apart your stereo again
a joke of a full-time salary gets another chuckle
after you chuck it away at the powder and booze
and it's all gone in one day and one night every fortnight like clockwork
and for a brief and sickly glad-wrapped optimism
wasted on some cheap, dumb circus trick
the temporary illusion of Power and Control and Destiny and Confidence
and you think you're hiding it from the world like you're the KGB
don't you? but guess what?
everyone knows, you stupid fuck, even your Mum
Jesus, there's a whole crowd of people
you don't know at all who are following the story as closely
as a rookie cop follows a black V8 Commodore
judge me at risk of exposing your own weakness
my conscience is as clean as your bi-annual marriage sex
Gen-X refugees like me had to learn quick
in your new world orwell where nothing you do or say
for the rest of your life belongs to you anymore
foolish impulses, your young and uninformed opinions
your inadvertently offensive bad attempt at late-night comedy
guilty double entendre twigged too late as militantly inclusive heads spin
a drunken vitriolic rant aimed at the wrong target
all of it written in permanent ink on an indestructible Encyclopaedia Earth
pored over by the millisecond by the 7 billion humourless, wilfully pedantic
talking monkeys all screeching and chucking their shit at each other
(one of said primates the prick sitting across the desk at your job interview)
nothing is forgiven now
no awkward nosedive into the shallows of shame
not a doomed and fumbling attempt to hit on your Facebook friend
who you didn't know had got married three years ago
and when a willing victim finds your Hate-Crime it goes pandemic
The indignation multiplies exponentially with the smell of blood
there will be no cure, no quarter, no mercy, no excuse, no sense, no justice
no civilised discourse, no face to face, no awareness of context or tone
no basic compassion, no attempt at an understanding of your intention
no sign of that great lost and noble art, comprehension
like conversation and the ancient practice of taking the time
decimated and rendered devoid of its meaning
not just words but whole concepts emptied of any cultural significance
History is re-remembered, re-written, re-edited nobody notices or cares
ALL PRAISE THE ALMIGHTY ALGORITHM THE ONE TRUE GOD
THE COMPANY BRAIN
dude
maybe take a break from torturing such a fried, worried mind?
pricked with forks of future timelines all ending in disaster and downfall
a hundred threats, real or imagined?
I don't know anymore it is impossible to know
I made a meditation game of ignoring verbs
or words that imply you are wrong when you know
that you are right when you have been wronged
sometimes truth lands like Tom Cruise on the roof of the seaplane
virile and capable, active and rock hard like a nugget
supernaturally focused and juiced up 2MAXCAP hi-octane ME-power
sometimes truth finds you mouth open and stunned
your winning hand vanished then reappearing opposite
in front of a grinning opponent who scoops the table with a whoop
you look down again dumbfounded at your fistful of jokers
you look up at the nods coming his way from upper management
Why, Mr Wolfy, such perfect white teeth your avatar has to smile with!
and so many ways to keep the numbers running a tiny bit longer
after the last dog gets a photo and the race has run
and the same poor old mug tears up his ticket
and goes back to jumping at the same shiny brass ring
but you, Mr Wolf, with distraction a beautiful assistant on your arm
head on over with a swagger to long line at the bar with your AAA pass
the deed is done once you confirm that you have won, yet again
Hey btw did you catch that bit towards the end where we ate your soul?
About the Creator
Steve Parkin
Songwriter & singer & backyard poet from Perth in Western Australia.
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