Better of Alone

When I'm feeling shitty I tell myself I was raised with a broken heart

Gives me an excuse for why my crushes fall apart

Better off alone

I'm damaged goods

If you take it back to my early days

I kind of always was

I never really knew

If my friends were true

it's easy to feel pitied

When there's so much you physically can’t do

Better of alone

How do I tell my family

I don't feel comfortable calling their house home

So I made my own

Isn’t funny the new ways you see your life

When a new person tells you that doesn’t sound right

Walking a path of trauma

Paved by well-intentioned parents

Would I be an introvert if  I had been a happy child

Instead my imagination became my ideal company

Think twice before speaking

Sometimes it was best not to speak at all

Or so I thought

Better of alone

That's what I tell myself

For someone afraid to grow

I give a lot of advice

A little distance has been good for me

I get to show myself more on more each day

Visits aren't good for me

I slip into old ways

I feel 12 years old all over again

When I wasn't alone but I was lonely

My thoughts are all befuddled

I somehow became the problem child

Better of alone

Underappreciated by blood

Found my family the hard way

and I'm headed for happier days