An ode to kindness
24 stanzas in sapphic form
An ode to kindness
24 stanzas in sapphic form
Blooming before you are the roses, guarded
but proud. Sharing the vase, there are lilies.
Lilies grieve with you; their sickening sweetness
stains an empty home.
These twelve stems, tied loosely with hessian, found
their way to you by the will of a woman
overseas. She is finding her feet. Thinking
of you, reads a note.
Unknowingly, she has gifted you hope. For
all the nights given over to mourning,
a gesture so simple rewinds the tape. Look
back in company.
You day-trip down south, skim stones in the ocean
and watch the best boys spin in the air. Loose change
is lost to the fair; pennies are won back by
chance in the arcade.
While you wait on the pier, salt water dances
beneath your feet. You scribble instructions on
old receipts. Words take their places, waiting for
the curtains to part.
Share. Share all your love, share your time, share stories.
Share food in a family-run cafe,
listen to the laughter of maracas as
new loves meet the old.
You carry excitement home to the city,
leaving fragments behind familiar doors,
lose your souvenir grin with scattered goodbyes.
Leave your love behind.
Shadows cast by street lamps have you checking twice
over each shoulder. Childish fear; grown-up world.
People you cry with understand. People you
never meet do, too.
You crush lavender buds as confetti to
cast over your pillow. You brew somnolence
potions from fennel and chamomile flowers.
You wed those long nights.
Another week finds you breaking, solitary,
longing for authenticity and to be
vulnerable in the safety of an embrace.
You experiment.
Break open a pomegranate, let it bleed
the truth from its ruby seeds. Spill honesty
over the kitchen counter. Let them see that
you mean what you say.
Stepping stones carry you over a stream, you
envy the open water. Linking arms, you
follow an estuary on foot. The murky
mirrors hide secrets.
Listen to people who were never prepared.
Listen to their uncertain words as they speak
in cliches, and respond with your well-rehearsed
reassurances.
Magpies show themselves in pairs again. Your luck
changes. Still, you are forging filial love
with symbols of a dark past. The wet warmth of
shame clings to your skin.
You paint by numbers with your weak hand, craving
guidance. An exercise in control. Release
the angriest colours first; the soothing blues
will follow. Good job.
You call out in your sleep, stir from unrest and
listen to an answerphone message at four
a.m. Next time, someone will answer. Next time,
they will pick you up.
A visitor carries sprinkles and icing
over the threshold to decorate home-baked,
sugar-dusted shapes. Cookie-cutter caring.
Pretend you’re alright.
Feed each other. Allow friendship to warm you.
Accept offerings of carrot cake, brownies,
rocky road, gingerbread. Allow your sister
to mother you more.
Evenings are shared that blend into dreams, merge with
dawns, swaddle you in the light of new mornings.
A single bed is used as a double. There
is comfort within.
A distant relative reminds you: there is
potential laid down somewhere. Somewhere, hidden
in a safe place, it is waiting, forgotten.
Pick it up for luck.
Count each small kindness that finds its way to you.
Nurture your own belief in these soft fictions.
Cradle yourself in the liminal hours, trapped
between night and day.
When you learn love is gestured, you will rest well.
Yarrow flowers are pressed into silver clay:
a pendant to represent an embrace. Wait
for the link to close.
Trace the outline of hope in a half-smile. Let
someone else colour within the lines this time.
Take a break. Take a good, long break. Take a week
to rest in the West.
Through thistle and heather, over cliffs and down
into the resting cove where you shelter, hear
the autumn sighs of the tired earth. Whispering,
kindness finds her way.
About the Creator
Sophia dos Remedios
Doctor by day, writer by night, activist always
she/her, LG{B}T+
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