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I realized that day I wasn’t Pluto
And you weren’t the sun
You were just an asteroid posing as one
And when I looked down at my hands I realized, with suit and mask, I was just an observer, a simple human
We are nothing more and nothing less
Two beings, simple entities, in the same plane of existence
But those moments weren’t figments
Unless you want me to believe this
Because for a moment I thought it could have been
Like a serendipity that lies within,
Too similar, but opposites
Why did I do that, why did I trust it?
Then again, maybe it was the crowd
The asteroids that surround
Making me believe in this, “the right here and now”
But why did you do this?
And why did my heart give in?
I knew I could get burned by the sun
I was prepared for this
But asteroids plummet and become star dust
A lesson I can’t learn again because I’ve already lost so much
They burn brightly for a moment but then they die
And this thought hangs on my mind and I cry
I hold out a hand with words that scream try
And you let every word pass you right by
I see you rocketing towards that orb headed for that path
And I have to back up and look away, please, I can’t see you crash
A beautiful orb burning a crimson gold wiping away the person and the ghost I had once known
You are red, white, and turning a fiery hue
But when I met your eyes that day it all turned blue
Maybe I’m not patient enough
If I just wait, I’ll see that he’s a sun
Or maybe my inner child is done, she no longer feels safe when they come
She says, “Go away, It’s all too much”
It’s not a matter of time being wasted
My time is yours and so is the energy
But what you can’t take away, please, what you can’t waste is my love
Make me believe in something to get a high, to feel alive, and leave a heart that’s gushing one that you’ve opened wide
Then hide behind words that don’t meet your actions
Like you can walk away unscathed from this quiet disaster for just one thing…
Was I simply a confidence boost?
It’s nothing new
It seems to be my lot in life,
So instead of feeling nothing, I’ll let the aorta ooze
It paints a new constellation, a new galaxy of hues
Filling the cracks with more than just gold, copper, and ore
Creating a muse that one day I’ll find peace in and adore
Because there goes two-thirds of one heart and now you’ve stolen the “sun”
So, what else does he want?
What more can he throw at me before I’m done?
Yes next time, “i’lL hOld BaCK mY lOVe”
But I’m so tempted to just cut out my soul, mirroring the only cold I’ve ever known
But “wE’re gEtTinG bEttER, nOT WOrsE”
And its another lesson I’ll have to learn
So, in short:
I don’t hate you,
My heart wants you more than you know
But if this is all fake, just a temporary thing,
I can’t trust it just to watch you burn.
About the Creator
VT
Where words fail my poetry speaks…
and I’m really not good at speaking.
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