This poem might require you do to some work.
That's ok.
It should take work to understand someone else.
Thank you.
For doing the work.
The next me might not have to do it alone.
The flag above is the demisexual flag. It represents the demisexual identity, which is part of the LGBTQA+ community. Please note, about the flag:
- the black stands for asexuality (feeling/experiencing no sexual attraction)
- the purple represents community (a place where people who are unique don't have to feel so alone)
- the grey represents grey sexuality (being in-between asexual and sexual identities)
- and the white represents sexuality (feeling and experiencing sexual attraction and desire)
The flag was created to represent the demisexual identity which does not feel or experience sexual attraction unless certain circumstances (namely, emotional connection) are met. Demisexual people may or may not experience or desire to experience sexual attraction or connection. They may or may not have or desire intimate romantic or sexual relationships. Demisexual people may or may not know that's what they are, yet. They may or may not feel like something is wrong with them when each year passes and they still haven't had their first kiss. They may or may not have experienced feeling different or broken when surrounded by sexually normative friends. They may or may not have been searching for an answer for a long time only to have just found it. And those last ones may or may not just be me.
The Absence of All Colour - A Poem
What if
What if what i am is
an absence of colour?
We sit on the floor
red wine spills marking
tangled limbs
and they
whisper
of passion
stained purple on lips
stories told, affairs untangled
of heat
and sweat
touching
hips
What if
What if what i am is not
temporar…ily black?
We sit on the floor
my glass of
red wine
untouched
my lips
unstained
and silent
i have
no stories to share
i have
no kisses
touches
sweat and heat
to tell
What if
What if what i am is
a kind of broken
that can’t be fixed?
We sit on the floor
they try
to include me
in their colour
her staircase tryst
a blazing sun of yellow
too strong
to keep indoors
her sprouts of spring green
a question in the eyes
of another girl
she might chance to answer
her experience
of years beyond our own
a lavender field of memories
lover’s hands in her’s
the sweet smell bringing a smile
to her lips
her icy blue
of desire unmet
the ocean waves echoing
her elemental ‘no’
the unquenchable depths
of her knowledge
that she will always be
desired
my pink
of blushes on cheeks
rose of youth
not meant to age
to where
i
am
What if
What if where i am is
where i will always have to be?
We sit on the floor
empty glasses
gossiping to tomorrow
about all the
stories we
had to
tell
tonight
except
except mine
What if
What if what i am is
an absence of all colour?
What if
What if all i am
is a colour most people can’t see?
We sit on the floor
and they
they tell stories
that don’t include
me
and me
I sit on the floor
and i
i wonder if something is
wrong
in me
But
What if
What if the absence of all colour
was white
and what if
since that is true
i could be
too?
About the Creator
Audrey Leda
actress • writer • activist • poet
hopeless romantic, shameless idealist, unrepentant dreamer, compulsive traveler
instagram: audrey.leda.writes | twitter: @audreyledawrite
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