Alive with your Death
I hope he’s wrong and I get to see you again
I once heard a man say he had died before
And in that moment I believed him
Because he said that once his soul left his body
His entire existence was deleted
He said it faded away like a dream
A departure to whatever was next it seemed
You do see your life flash before your eyes
But it’s your own memory that says goodbye
It got me thinking
I want to die
I always have and I may always will
Especially now that you’re gone
I can’t fathom anything will ever feel real
But if I were to go, and he is in the right
I’d never get to see you again once I was presented the light
At least here I have pictures and blurry past times
At least here I feel your loss
There, I’d have no mind
At least here I would have known you
And that may just be the silver lining
That I’ve been looking for in these days of dread
Getting up every morning wishing it was my time
Because I always believed it would lead me straight back to you
So what’s the point of living in agony if it’s something I don’t have to do
But if there is a chance that I’d forget more than I already have
I guess I’ll stay here.
I’ll stay here with you.
Wishing I were dead
About the Creator
Ecarg Nosive
I'm a 27 year old writer from Ohio trying to make my passion, my career. Besides writing I enjoy animals, nature, and concerts.
Comments (1)
Very poignant poetry, Ecarg.