Agony's Dilemma

How shall I start?

Well, where it all fell apart,

No, you don't understand,

Then what would you demand?

Where it all makes sense,

But that puts you on the fence,

How so? I live this nightmare, even now!

Yet still, in this moment you refuse to describe how,

I'm trying, but the words escape me,

Escape you? You do not even want me to see,

I'm not trying to blind you, yet my pain is inescapable,

I get it, you think that I'm replaceable,

No, I do not dare one bit,

Then tell me, I'll listen and sit,

My love for you is beyond words-,

Is that not what they say about the bees and the birds?

No, you don't understand what I'm saying,

No, I don't understand this game you are playing!

I'm suffering! There is a pain beyond what words replicate!

Stop trying to deviate!

Does my mind not mean anything to you?

How can I know when none of your words are new?

This is depression, self-hatred, it's an endless deep pain,

All I hear are words said in vain,

I have been on an edge I fear I may jump,

Do you say this so you can sit on your rump?

You insult me and my struggle,

No, you have too many lies to juggle,

Please, help me I beg of you,

There is nothing you say that I believe to be true,

Yet again, here we are, ending my words before we start!

Ah, and here we are, where it all fell apart,

And I bet in my end I won't be missed,

No, I'll feel the pain each time I remember we kissed.

-H.L. Steele