I had a dream
about your son
months before he was born,
the same one
as our second cousin
whose daughter came too soon,
but I never told you.
What would it accomplish,
bring more confusion
and anxiety
to your already complicated
life?
Once, I journeyed to Alaska
with your white and black cat,
who purred stories
about her own bravery,
and I met him for the first time.
With the quaking of his knees,
the twinge in his toes,
I discovered a sign
that he was special.
But I didn't divulge
the portent weighing
only on those with sight
for these sorts of things.
When we were
children, time flashed before
my eyes,
and I think you saved
my life,
but I never explained
what that means.
If I did, would you stay?
I always
knew you wouldn't be
with me forever, burdened
by the obligation
of helping others,
but for the sake of our
unfinished story,
I hoped it could be longer.
Last winter,
there was a viper
peering through
the snow in your backyard,
and, dreadfully, I knew
that omen.
Yet, you would never admit
how unloved you’d been.
Intuition often
interpreted what you couldn’t.
That night after I asked,
“What do you want to be?”
and you said, “Just happy,”
I sobbed
in your ungrateful daughter's
bedroom.
I will not blame you
for the memories
we never had,
buried
in symbols and visions
of the paths
you didn't chance.
But for just a moment,
I wish you could glimpse
at what I did:
kids pretending
they were a queen and king
because they secretly
wanted to be loved without
losing themselves
along the way,
just one day of selfishness
and extravagance
to soothe the latchkey's
impression burned into
our skin.
Where did the happiness
hide, independence
or being needed?
—never wanted because
that was a stranger's
way.
I remember
when, together,
we may have changed—
a warning in our mother's
eyes, right there
for us to face.
"You can't fix everything."
But we both ignored it,
didn't we?
Funny,
you cried first,
and I heard it
somehow, still in
the womb, then decided
to only weep in secret
because I knew you needed
me to be strong.
How long
have we played this game
of unknowing each other?
At night,
I look for signs in the stars
that you uncovered
the viper,
heavy from hibernation,
pulled her
out of the snow, and
sent her southward
where it was warmer.
But I think you have become
accustomed to the frozen
companion.
I had a dream
about your son last week.
He called my name
and asked me to tell the story
of the girl and boy
who accompanied pirates
across the sea
in search of a lost secret.
You questioned,
"After all these
years, what was it?"
"You,"
I finally admitted.
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Sam Eliza Green
Wayward soul, who finds belonging in the eerie and bittersweet. Poetry, short stories, and epics. Stay a while if you're struggling to feel understood. There's a place for you here.
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Incredibly tense and heartbreaking poem. Love the work