I'm perfectly unhinged
and you don't get to see
that side of me
you don't deserve to see my
kintsugi pieces
finely meshed together
all the pieces that you scattered
I learned to finely seam back together;
all my jagged edges
catching sunlight in the gold
all my fucked up humor, quirks and random acts of love
you can glimpse them
from the little bottles
that I toss out to sea
and then maybe piece together
what you've lost of me
I don't resent you
I haven't even sent you across this ocean
No, you dug these trenches
and filled them with turned backs
and your empty words
and little hands
tugging at empty promises
and the last child waiting
never to be heard
I love you
I love you:
listen to those echoes across the void
That's all you get to hear
the rest is only a family
performing on a stage
and I won't live like this anymore
and you can keep validating
self importance
in photos
and in your gossip circles
spend your days and hours
telling everyone how good a nurturer you are
when we both know
that you never really knew me
-and with my brother it was never, ever this hard-
And
you would have rather had
anything else other
than a monster
you would have traded lies on top of lies
to trade in a broken puppet
for the apple of your eye
once
I would have given anything
to be your daughter
but now all I can give is my goodbye
About the Creator
LNoelle
Poet, philosopher, witchy woman/goblin. Jill of all trades with a passion for life & the freedom for all to live & love deeply & truly.
Dabbler in art (wonky original works seen here) and tend to overuse "ashes", psychoanalyze if you must.
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