A Nervous System on Fire
living with my head on a swivel
My blood hasn’t stopped dancing
since witnessing the boys on the train
scream slurs at a woman my age
for defending the man they were harassing.
My heart hasn’t stopped pounding
since finding out
that I am now in danger
thanks to the sins of my co-worker.
My thoughts haven’t stopped racing
since the bomb threat a few months ago,
or the shooting threat at my high school
and it’s accompanied 4-hour lockdown
back in 2018.
My eyes are eternally glued
to preside over my shoulder,
unable to look at anything else.
But Fear, who will have me believe
that I am in constant danger,
now finds itself at war with Guilt.
Because I recognize the privilege I have
of being able to breathe air,
that doesn’t contain mass casualties.
Because I am not the victim of war,
I have not lived through the atrocities
and horrors that others have.
Because I live in a bubble,
that for the most part,
remains un-popped most of the time.
But the violence I have experienced,
both towards me and around me,
refuses to go away.
So I suck it up
and learn to live
with a nervous system on fire
About the Creator
Alessandra Ventura
An English major & former film student, I just want to write like I’m running out of time :)
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