A Conversation with My Sister, About What to Write Next...
A poetic note to self and our stories.
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Talk about how you starved yourself
and threw mother's lunchboxes away,
talk about how one compliment
would be all the food you'd need
for one two four three days
how once you got home
you ran to your room and fasted,
and slept hunger away.
a dying body.
Talk about how the men on magazines
made you feel horny and inadequate,
talk about the closet, the 40th lock,
the chains of heritage concealing
you in fear. no freedom.
talk about grandad's illness,
the guilt you feel in retrospection
waking up in the morning and changing the channels on his tv
without asking, in silence, entitlement.
how you might have inherited his heel.
Talk about dad's weight,
how his health traumatised you
and how you internalised mom
her ruthlessness
slapping the spoon right off his mouth everytime,
how that's you now, why dont you talk about that.
and stop with these half arsed love poems that in the dead of night, when shit hits the fan with every card on the table, are just
One
Fat
Cry
for self love.
27/10/2017
Oxford, UK
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