A Birthday Card
To a broken man in pain...
If it would bring you peace
I hope you forget about me
If it would bring you stillness
I hope you forget about us
All of us
Of all the hard work I've seen you do
I've never seen anyone work harder to leave
So if it would bring you reprieve
I hope you find a place where you can go
That's far enough away
I hope there's a pathway, so long, so distant, so plentiful with something else (whatever you need)
That it completely
Eclipses
Erases
Washes away
What you desperately, willfully abandoned
So thoroughly
That upon reflection
It never happened
As fate would have it, 6 years into your escape, our paths would cross
I saw in your eyes our silhouettes, permanently burned into ground zero of your psyche
An unfortunate consequence of the atom bomb of your absence
But your neglect was...
Peculiar
You stayed just close enough to watch
Beyond reach
Just close enough to see us suffer and panic in the face of annihilation
Just close enough
To watch it all from safety
That spectacle came at a cost that you lack the shame to fathom
Is your ego satiated?
How did our Suffering taste?
I often contemplate my inheritance
That volatile cocktail of emotional abuse and Empowerment
Of Wit and Fury
That dizzying Alchemy of Heavenly Sincerity and Demonic Manipulation
Never once did you allow me to assume the game of existence was anything like checkers
I was 19 when I realized I was a pawn in your game
Loyal
Expendable
Vulnerable
Deluded
Apt for Sacrifice
I realized
On the altar
My chest torn open
I realized
When I saw my beating heart for the first time in hands I once called Home
That you don't see people, you see pieces.
You don't see faces, you see sides
Your last words to me were
"I see your moves."
Do you?
What do you see now?
I'll tell you what I see.
I see a King trapped in the last square of the last row of his Kingdom
I see a Pawn standing defiantly in front of him
I see a Rook far, far behind, but in line
A symbol of all of the officers, the people you discarded
In your cowardice
In your pain
I see
And
I feel
The rust on your crooked, broken crown
The ashes of the bridges burned rain down around us
I gaze deep into your eyes reflecting the shame and pain that now hungers for the remaining years of your life, the remaining joy in your life
And if it would bring you peace
I'd clear the board and walk away
But that's not how this works, is it?
Happy Birthday.
About the Creator
its really good to see you
I am Jay.
My goals are to creatively encourage you to cultivate genuine self love and to free your mind.
I invite you to step into genuine tranquility and light.
I offer seeds for the garden of your body, mind, and soul.
I hope you plant them
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