3 Wishes

A friend once brought up the talks of magic lamps and genies. At the moment I brought of the special fact of 3 wishes. 3 wishes to ask for anything.

Yet, just because you wish for something, it doesn't mean you'll be fucking happy.

I'm too scared to allow myself to be happy... yet, no one gets why. The more your heart has been broken and cheated... Do you start thinking what's the point of wishing?

Yet, with the three wishes I know what I would have done...

1.) Start over with my ex and not make the same mistakes

2.) Wish I never had a miscarriage

3.) Change my body (Too look the way I've always wanted to)

We all have wishes that we want to be granted but are they really that deep and important?

Are they worth using three wishes for? Are we that important to have them answered when God doesn't always answer?

I stare in a mirror sometimes wondering, what's wrong with me? Why can't I find love? Why do I get so depressed? Why are my arms full of cuts?

Moreover, why do I push away the people who love me into other individuals?... I break trust like I'm cracking heart's open and spilling acid and poison.

I want to wish for so much but why should I?

Is wish ever easy?

No, it is not because the hardest decisions always come in the easiest of days but the worst of nights.

Maybe... I would only wish for one thing...

never losing that child.

Three wishes do not mean anything to me anymore,

they mean crap to me. They're just another gamble because,

why take 3? When I only need one wish.

Mama misses you, Raza.