Someone once told me that there is a saying that: "You can pick the right person at the wrong time." At first I didn't believe that saying because there is never a right person and life is unpredictable. Yet, I wish I could say that trusting someone is easy, that it's simple to love someone with all your heart and I wish I could say that relationships are easy. I wish that I could say dealing with someone's baggage is simple as fuck but it's hard and damaging. I know this because I know I've damaged people with mine, the same exact way they damaged me with theirs. But isn't that the price we pay for falling in love? Isn't that the price we pay for giving ourselves emotionally, physically, and mentally to someone that we barely know? I wish I could write and say that trusting and loving a person is easy but I would be spitting bullshit from my mouth. I wish I could lie and say that trust came easy to me...but it hasn't but it used too. Oh god...it used to slip into my hands so easily like water but even water starts to freeze and disappear.
"How can you love someone that doesn't love themselves?"
Some days I want to breathe,