12 Years a Slave -Now Free
September 19th 2023 marked 3 years of freedom from a twelve year nicotine addiction. Here’s how I did it;
I bought tobacco a beautiful tin, an accessory to glamourise my shameful sin
I had a beautiful lighter that looked rather regal and hand rolled typically with something illegal
I bought my own papers that were organic and thin and kept them all together in that beautiful tin.
It travelled with me everyday, journeyed everywhere, to allay
any slight perceived stress, which at one time was every hour or less.
And like all addicts I thought I was tobacco’s keeper, which is amusing somewhat, given the fear felt when it wasn’t near
It was a gradual opening of my eyes that helped to see my own web of lies
Lies about not smoking all that much, or using it as an emotional crutch
Lies about how it didn’t matter either way
Lies I told myself everyday
Lies about how I enjoyed the taste
Lies about how it didn’t ruin the skin on my face
Lies about how easily I could stop
Lies I told myself in every shop
Until the day I was talking to a friend, about his drug and alcohol addiction again,
I told him if he loved himself, he would take far better care of his health,
I told him if he loved the people around him, he would care for his body again,
I knew I was right, it was easy to see, which is exactly when he turned my words on me,
“How can you say that when you still smoke? It’s not much different to an occasional line of coke”
And in that second I knew he was right, I couldn’t escape my own words that night
To consider myself loving I couldn’t continue to smoke, for each time I did, I was triggering others to toke
I burst into tears because in that moment I knew, I finally had to face this absolute truth
Smokers aren’t truly loving - it’s not possible to be, for it’s a form of self harm that others can see
And monkeys do what monkeys see, monkeys copy so easily
So whether I trigger a friend or a stranger, I had to accept I was encouraging others towards danger,
And what of children that watch me inhale? The thought of that made me severely pale
That’s not love, it’s not even close, so I now had to choose which I valued the most
The tobacco or my value of love, it wasn’t even a choice when push came to shove
And since that night I’ve never smoked it again, I had too much to lose and nothing to gain
And I thank my past self in every way, for doing that hard work that I benefit from today
I had used a vape to transfer the addiction, after two weeks removed the nicotine to kill that affliction,
I would occasionally smoke a blue lotus roll, if cravings were desperate and I was scared to fall
and after two months of inhaling sweet glycerin vapour, suddenly I was awakened to this insane caper
I still remember my utter confusion, why was I inhaling this strange infusion?
no longer under nicotines grip, everything in my life began to flip,
So on that day, I threw my vape away
And that’s the story of why I stopped smoking, and how I got free of the nicotine potion
Comments (8)
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Wow!! I’m so impressed and so glad that you were able to break free!❤️❤️
This is a great story and important message in verse! Congrats on kicking the habit Kayleigh!! ☺️👏👏👏
I kissed my first boy and smoked my first cigarette on the same day. I haven’t had time for tobacco since. 😊
As usual...you top trump yourself! well done, first of all for breaking free of the addiction! your story, and poem are inspirational filled with wisdom! I love how artistic the poem is! Well done!
I'm so glad that you friend turned your words on you. That was the wake up call that you needed! Getting over a 12 year addiction ain't easy but you put in the effort and made it possible! So proud of you my friend! Here's to 3 years of freedom and many more years to come!
great story but smoking causes cancer ... dear
Great poem, and a great story. Hopefully it can help someone that needs it 😊