I sit all alone
In my living room
Awake at 4 am
The sound of metal thronging outside
Somewhere nearby
Interrupts my slumber
Grinding grinding grinding
In sync with the throbs
Of my most recent headache.
Who am I? Awake and in pain
at this awful hour.
Nobody to you.
The noise outside seems indicative
Of some larger world problems,
Drawing nearer to my fort.
What do I know,
I am just a voter.
The noise is louder, coming closer.
My stomach rumbles an announcement
So I change the channel, to silence
I’m just a voter
I did my job.
I watched and I waited,
While I studied the world
From all of my screens
Inside my safe cave.
I watched and I read
And learned what I needed
To make the informed choice
That everyone says
Is my civic duty.
I raised my concerns
And shared my own questions
With my inner circle.
I formed my own opinion
About what was right
And what seemed best
For me, for everyone.
And when I was asked
To share my feelings publicly—
On paper, in person, today,
That is when I performed.
I cast my vote.
This nobody had a voice!
But now,
I sit alone in the dark, afraid.
I can’t go outside,
I might get sick and die.
Or, I might make you sick
And you might die.
I have a whole drawer
Devoted to masks, gloves,
And sanitizer, just in case
I need to find you up close.
I’ve been alone here so long
That even my dreams
Are six feet apart
Still I do what I’m told
It’s no fun but it’s right
To sit alone and hope
That the people who rule the world
Will bring me some change.
I sit on the shelf, wondering
Is this my final duty?
To pray I won’t expire
Before my time?
I’m just a voter—
I still need to eat.
On occasion, I must brave
contaminated tundra
Outside the safe zone.
This isn’t often,
(I’m one of the lucky ones)
But out I must go
To hunt for resources,
Try to live another day or
Week, month, year,
To be ready and able
to vote again
When next I’m called!
... I return home
As fast as I can
To scrub off with hard soap
The disease I just rubbed up against,
In fear of spread
And when I’m satisfied,
Disinfected and sated,
I sit alone quietly again, and wonder
When will this all end?
I’m tired of amusing myself;
A slave to WiFi and
Learning new tricks
To occupy mind and body
While the great wait lingers on,
or until such time when my leaders
Find cures for all the ailments
Of the world.
The more I sleep
The more tired I become!
Rest has become torture,
An almost-death. Please,
Please let me live!
But I’m just a voter
Now stripped of everything
Save only one right:
To vote.
Until such an event,
When I may be needed again
To have a voice,
To share my one vote,
here I am... still
Alone and afraid
In pain, grief, mourning,
Deteriorating
And waiting
Tick, tock.
Bang!
Just when I thought
And became resolute
That life could not become
More Desolate,
Hope arrived
A tiny pinprick.
An injection of pure magic!
Might this turn the tide?
Get in line, hurry!
But not you, not yet.
You’re just a voter
Go home, wash your hands
Wear your mask, and
Do not go to school
To work
To church
To restaurants
To lovers
Just, stay.
We’ll go first.
You stay quiet
Don’t call us
We’ll call you
I take another handful
Tylenol, Advil, maybe more,
And apply a warm compress
To my aching ______
(Fill in the blank.)
Ok, I do what I’m told.
I’m just a voter, is all.
I suppose I should be grateful
For pain, for the underlying fear
makes it easier
To stay where they tell me
And hold keep in my place all alone
Where I belong.
The thronging has stopped.
It’s 6 am whatever day —
my cave is still.
But I cannot rest, not yet...
How long do I have
Until a mob appears
To tear down my walls?
Why can’t my leaders see
The world has been destroyed.
There’s nothing left here,
No promises, no hope
But worry and wait for
what else may come to us
In front of death.
What is our safety worth
If every second is spent
In fear that the net will disappear?
Twelve more endless days?!
I’m just a voter.
And I voted!
Against the madness!
yet here I sit
Alone, tired, afraid, hurting
and continuing
To go mad
About the Creator
Teri LaBuwi
Teri LaBuwi is a talented multi-media artist, writer, and poet from Northern Virginia, where she has also made a name for herself as a successful real estate broker and consultant. Some of her works are displayed online.
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