~ 10 years ~
For 10 years
I lied next to that man
For 10 years
I believed his lines,
For 10 years
I was locked away inside,
I couldn’t be me;
For 10 years he touched me
and told me of his love
without any show of support.
I couldn’t live Romantically... (what’s that?)
Sometimes I would lie there numb
And hope that he would notice,
but he never did... He just went till he was done
leaving me there to feel like death?
I want to know what it’s like
to enjoy what I feel, instead of all the filth
that dominated my sexual world.
There was a whole other side to me
that I was never free to be,
shut down at every effort made to communicate
the anger never ended...
I always felt suspended
when the darkness lived inside;
Still... he never realized, through the tears I cried
and the pleeze to make him stop.
I was living in a mind field
Never knowing when he’d go off...
Even when I thought out what I wanted to say,
He could find a way to cause a war
that could not be escaped...
It took 10 years to stand up for who I wanted to be
For 10 years I lied next to him... crying for help,
then I realized you first have to get out.
Now I’m reconditioning the damage that was done
I’m learning to smile... once in awhile,
I walked barefoot through the grass...
reminding me of how good life feels;
As I learn to live again
for 10 years a future of my own... was ‘never’ in my site,
Now it’s never–ending opportunities
that are layed out before me, as I move along...
Growing strong in the light
Everyone deserves a good life!
About the Creator
Jennifer Cooley
I've been writing as long as I could hold a crayon! Remember writing my first story like it was yesterday at 5. I remember the details of the day, location, time, excitement & where the story was preserved for all time! Lots Born From That!
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